A message of a thankful heart

2010 is almost over but I wont let it pass without saying any word of thankfulness to all that I receive this year. As I remember I had been through some tough times in this past few years, but even in those hardships I still remain standing and now still living. Thanks to people who keep believing that I can make it to this point.

I wanna say thank you for my parents who always at my side in every steps I made. To my brothers and sisters who make me smile and make me like a chatterbox when we are all gathered around to talk. To all my friends that somehow helps me focus on good things in life and who also believe that Im a strong woman. And most of all I wanna say GREAT THANKS to our ALMIGHTY GOD that he never let me go astray, As many times I tried to wanna experience being lost but HE never let go of me. For being there for me, even in the last minute that I almost give up my life.

Sometimes, Its so hard to deal with the battle of life, coz there are times that I lost direction. I dont know which way to go but so thankful that GOD gifted me good people that helps me see the beauty of life ahead.

This year is really a great year for me. I am lucky because I am still breathing and living and enjoying great things GOD made. So thankful that GOD shown me his glory. I remember, my mind was stuck of the thought that my life will always be a bad luck. I am not bad but only those some people I've known and met made my life bad luck. But I have no hatred to them coz I know it happens for a reason. It would be a lesson for me, or a test for my faith to see how long can I hold on. Either way only GOD knows everything.

And through this year I've experience such great things that GOD let me experience. I've been experiencing a great love from someone sent by GOD in my way for the first time. Experienced things I never experience before. Being love as who I am. Receive a love more than I am expecting to have. Isn't it a way so much blessing to thank for? Yes, I am so thankful for that, and feel so blessed. For many times I've prayed to GOD to answer my prayer, to hear my prayer, I was kinda impatient. After a while, thought GOD wont answer my very wish. I give-up but not thinking to go wild although there are times I wanted to but still I feel that GOD is there, HE never wants me to walk in a different road away from his home. And so, GOD shown me and finally answered my prayer.

To everyone who put colors to my life this year 2010, many thanks. To some that gives some charcoal to my life this year, I still wanna thank you.

And to someone special (James N.) that gives me so much inspiration to wake up everyday many , many thanks. THANK YOU for making my year so wonderful, Thank you for showing me the real love, a GODLY-Like love.

Lastly, my love and faith in our one and only almighty GOD, Thank you. You are the number one reason that Im still breathing and seeing the beauty of life on earth despite of all struggles and troubles I had been through and would meet up in the future. Hope YOU will continue to help me fight the battle and make win in the end.

In your name and in your power nothing is impossible. I love you LORD GOD and thank you once again!!

Truly yours,
Eugielene

Life...........Life

Life is not easy. Not everyone is born with a golden spoon in his mouth. Some struggles a lot to achieve ones dream. Blessed are those who born in a wealthy life. Lucky for those who born rich in both spiritual and material things.

But the reality is almost more than half of the population in this world struggles and taste life's bitterness. And we cannot change this fact. Everyone has its own way on how to carry on life. Some people choose to go through good ways and some choose to live life in wrong ways. What's bad is, aside from the fact that they live in too much struggles they still choose to live life more worst. Like for example, one does know what's the effect of drinking alcohol too much but then they dont stop and then time comes the result of it comes out, so what can we say. It will give more problem and pressure to family.

Some people choose to escape the life they live-in. Some didnt survive and made unwise decision. Some cut their lives thinking that its the only way to solve the problem. Some people choose to make it more worst.

Its so sad to see that some people doesn't realize the important of life. I know life is not really easy especially when you start to feel its burden. I've been through that and I even wish to go back in times where I am still a kid, no problems, no worries, all is just for playing times. But its part of life in this world.

Some said, in times of problems its not wise to take it seriously because it will only draw u to too much depression. They just say let it pass. But some said, it should be taken seriously. Either way, as long as it will be solve and brings good to ones self.

All I can say, life is like an adventure. Its like a track and field event. There are hurdles needed to pass. And its up to you how high you jump to pass it. Just be ready and be wise in life. Isn't it nice to think that in the end u defeated problem rather than you being defeated by problem. Problems have no hands or brain but it can make you go ensane. Just be wise and be strong to face it.

Dear Lord,

Lord GOD I pray for my love one. I place him into your loving care and protection wherever he is rightt now. Give him health of mind and body. Keep him safe from all dangers. May he find joy and fulfilment in all his works and endeavors. Let him enjoy the company of good friends who will be there for him in good times and in bad. When he feels lonely let him remember you are always near and that you are the truest friend he can always count on.

This I ask through your Holy Son Jesus Christ.

Eugielene Tulin

ASAP means?

Everyone wonders what ASAP means.
Most people would answer that its

As soon as possible

Yes, thats right. But another meaning would be

Always say a prayer

GOD knows how stressful life is
HE wants to ease our cares and HE will respond to our needs.

So ASAP

Will you give time for him?

One day is composing of 24 hours. When you wake up in the morning, you take 1 hour in arranging your bed and taking a bath. Another 1 hour for breakfast and prepare some stuffs. Then 8 hours for work. 1 hour for lunch. 3 hours for friends. 2 hours for television or watching movies and playing games. A half hour for dinner and 7 hours spend for sleep. How many hours you spend for such activities? Do you still have time to talk to Jesus? To repent and to thank? How long?

Sometimes 24 hours is not enough to spend for our daily schedules. Try to imagine, in 24 hours we only have a half hour to spend for Jesus or sometimes nothing at all. Jesus is always with us, protect us, and watch us 24 hours. We just don’t feel it because we got so busy in many things. Our mind is occupied with the things that we need to be done. Sometimes we work overtime to double it. It is not bad to become busy everyday because it’s a part of our daily life but Jesus is also a part in our life. We have to put space for Jesus to enter in our life.

Take time to pray, to kneel, to repent and to thank Jesus for all the good things, for these things give colors to our lives. And if you do, no matter how hard it is GOD will make it easy for you. Take time to realize that the easiest way of life, is living with GOD.

For all the things that the world gives you that comforts your life today and make you happy, it is GOD who made it to show you that HE really cares despite of having less time to remember him. Let us realize that GOD is the one who has the greatest HEART of all. Let us live life easy by putting GOD on top of everything we do because in GOD we trust then nothing hard at all…..

Service to Fellowmen is a Service to GOD

When we hear the word: SERVICE, what usually comes to our mind is the extension given by our government officials to others because of reasons sometimes we doubt. But I have a point to reveal.

Men can serve not because of their civic status, but their capability of doing so. Riches and fame is not a measure on what you can give to the less fortunate brothers. We can exercise rendering our service by starting the first and foremost principle “Compassion is given to, is not asked”.

Service is not only financial assistance extended to the need, but also it is the genuine effort exerted by individuals to succor those who are in need of succor. Service comes in many forms. Counsel to the confused, err to the pained, enlightenment to the embezzle, encouragement to the lost and hopeless and a lot more.

Service is not given for the benefit of the doer who may expect a payback of his good deeds shown to others. TRUE SERVICE – is the willingness of one’s desire to help people in their emotional, mental, psychological and even spiritual afflictions without expecting anything in return.

TRUE and WHOLEHEARTED SERVICE is what GOD intended us to share. When HE died in the cross to redeem us from our earthly sins, HE gave HIS life without reservations. For me, this is the most unfathomable service. We may not be expected to perform this one of a kind service but as a follower, what kind of service do you intend to give to others? Ask yourself for it is only GOD who can read what is in our hearts, mine is just to remind everyone that, “If you are in the service of your fellow beings, you are giving service to GOD”.

A sudden cry!!

Lord I dont know what to do. I don't know how long shall I wait. I am out of patient. And I am sorry. I just want to make this vocal. I give up my search. As far as I see, the more I work for it the more it goes away from me. And it makes me feel that I am hopeless. Although I really tried to make myself believe that there is hope but then I didn't feel it. I give up searching for that someone I long to have in my life. For if I continue to do it, it makes me think that I am searching for my human and earthly satifaction. The more that I struggle for my search, the more aggressive I become. And I don't want to be aggressive on things. I know you teach me to be patient. But it just happened that I reahed the end point of being patient. And so I am afraid to make mistakes that I would later regret for sounding too rush on things. I need you in my life Lord. Lead me the way. I will be lost without you. For now I should shut off my search. Focus on good things I have, my family, my friends that inspires me. Forget my past and learned from it. Continue to move forward and live my life more on spiritual things. I praised you Lord. I trust you. Forgive me if I sinned. I will once again surrender myself to you LORD (Eugielene)

The Cry!

Lord what you really want me to do? I do everything that I think you like me to be. What have I done to punish me. Until when shall I suffer, until when shall I see the problems of others. For all the good things I have done, I only have one favor I ask from you. Just peace of mind but yet you do not hear. What should I do? I am tired of keeping myself strong, fighting for good but yet you continue to lead me in a rocky road. Is this what you want to see from me? Is this the life you want me to have? I asked you what else should I do. You didn't speak? Do you want me to give up everything I have, leave my family, leave my work and all? Is that would be enough to end my sufferings? I always have the soft heart to listen to others and it hurts me that sometimes I really feel the urge to help but i have nothing to give. Why make me feel like this? I rather die than to continue to see sufferings and feel the burdens the earth bring. I long for change and yet changes weren't for good. I am tired striving for change, and now I don't knowif I can make it happen. A CHANGE FOR GOOD! I am only a small person on earth but I have big dreams for it. Lord, just tell me what you want me to do? I am tired of this life I have now. Until when shall I wait for the light to come my way? Until when shall you lend your ears and make your eyes see me in such agony? Forgive me, for there is no one I can ask this but only YOU. I trust YOU and believe in YOU. Until when shall I suffer for the problems of others? Until when shall I wait to have that Peace of Mind? Do I have to die first to have it? (Eugielene L. Tulin)

Heart vs. Brain

What the mind speaks is what the heart says. But sometimes what comes out from our mouth is not what the heart wanted to. It is so hard to fight against your heart as it often hurts our feelings. The heart tells us what we really feel inside and yet we deny it in order to hide our feelings. Mind is sometimes too pretentious. Especially in LOVE, we try to deny what we have inside for some reason. A reason that bring either good or bad in one self. Falling in LOVE is a free will, YES it is!. And you may continue it as long as you didn't step someone's pride. We all know that the heart is very weak when it comes to LOVE matters. Heart is very sacrificing, very forgiving and is like a martyr. Willing to give everything just to received appreciation or be recognized. Heart prefers to be called blind no matter what as long as feels love and will continue to love. When heart rules in LOVE, it may be dangerous. It could be a reason a man put a bullet in his head for not be able to control the feeling of being broken.

In other hand, the brain is another key in decision-making-process on all the things you do. In LOVE, what your heart feels, the brain or mind will weigh it in order to determine whether it is good or bad. Sometimes practicality is one of the main reasons why the mind deny it to do so. Have you ever experienced to say " I don't LOVE you anymore" but what you feel your heart is totally opposite of what you said. The mind is so good in hiding our feelings. Sometimes the mind can make us strong. But can also lead us to be like a rock. "A ROCK"!!.... "A hard-Hearted-Man" we called it. Being a man like this, we often forgot to show softness and sensitivity to the people around us. Though we feel it inside but we are just too macho to admit it and yet continue to be hard. We all know that the mind is power. But it can make us like a fool. It is like saying "I am not a losser." But yet what you really feel inside you are a losser.

The quest between the HEART vs. BRAIN has no ending. Each of which has something to contribute in oneself to become a better man. It is the man itself to decide which one he wanted to follow or to listen both sides before drawing to actions.


Heart below the mind because heart is sometimes irrational. Mind over heart to make it rational. Heart is just being honest and pure, mind is just being smart and showy.

My heart speaks (for my life)

Lord thank you for all the lessons you bring to my life in the year 2009. I feel so blessed and thankful to you for keeping me still and making me strong for all those times when I felt so down and thinking that I lost everything. I know I am not the only one feeling this way like having bad lucks in almost everything. There were those people experiencing problems harder than mine. And I saw them trying hard to stand up and wanted to start a new life inspite of all those pains and hardships they been through. 2009 already ends and I wanted to start my new year 2010 a new life. I want to tell you, I am so sorry for sometimes questioning your power. What I felt those times was that I am so alone. That you never hear me. I never realized that you never left. I am sorry for being so human. Now I can tell that if all of my friends turn away from me or whatever the world throws in me I know you are always there beside me. I just have to feel and realized it.

For my family, thank you for being an inspiration. Thank you for the problems you shared to me, for it makes us feel a family. I will continue to fight life's misfortune and will continue to love you and protect, you my family.

For all my friends, thank you for making me laugh and making me feel loved. For making me feel special. For reminding me that life is worthy. For telling that I am beautiful inside and that I deserve a good reward.

For the man who bring so much pains and heartaches in my life, I already forgive you. As you also a human that commit mistakes. I just wish that you won't do it to other anymore before its too late. That every mistakes you did will throws back at you, flashing back in front of you. As I told you " live life in a good way".

For my future, I will continue for being Eugielene. I will try to be more strong. I will stay the way I am. I will continue to be good. I will continue to love and maybe get hurts in the process.

And lastly, I will continue to search that someone for me which is my happiness. Someone that I will love and will love me in return. A love in both body and soul. I am hoping to meet you on 2010 the next chapter of my life.

Once again, Goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010.
Peace on Earth, and Peace of mind.
GOD speed.

Its me
EUGIE