Quite Disappointed

In everyday life sometimes we can say that we must do the best that we can. But sometimes its frustrating that we failed and feel quite disappointed. I know, everyone has this in mind to be somebody else. ANd I admit that I am dreaming to be somebody else.

I've long to change myself, to change EUGIELENE to somebody else but I never thought that the result make me disappoint. I feel like a dump after all. It wasn't so bad, but I feel that its not good at all.

Maybe somebody would say that he or she dont understand me. Yeah, its true,.. I agree. Because even me doesn't understand myself. I dont know where to place, where to start. I dont think if I need somebody else to fix me up or is there someone who can fix me. I am like a piece of paper teared down. Im like a broken glass.

What should I do? Do I have to wait what might come into my way? Do I have to be in a corner, just to keep silence? Where should I place myself?

I have so many questions that haven't answered. I have so many prayers and hopes. And I do keep praying and hoping that someday.. that someday...and someday everything will not be the same again. That my wheel of life will be at the top again.