A Goodbye 2013 and a New Beginning 2014

The year 2013 is a bit bitter-sweet for us. It is always present in life the ups and downs, but we are thankful that through it all we keep our spirit strong to face it all and here we are, welcoming a new year and a new beginning of another amazing and colorful year.

Remembering all the panicking moments we had.

May 2013. When James broke his ankle. We went to have an xray of his foot and the doctor said he needs surgery. We were worried because we don't have much trust of the doctor here specially in our place. My husband was in so much pain for like 3 weeks. Seeing him in the situation was like a stab on me. And because our budget was so tight that time so it ended up that we visited a massage therapy dude (hilot guy in the philippines). And slowly James ankle put back in its place. We had like 4 times to do massage.

June 2013. When we applied for the amendment of James Permanent Visa, during the application it wasn't accepted because the immigration put additional requirements which we didn't knew. We needed to submit NBI clearance for him and a police clearance from his home country. Getting the NBI clearance for him in the Philippines was not easy because we needed to travel all the way to Manila because NBI branches nearest our place won't release a clearance for foreigners. They always refer it to the Main Office. So we went to Manila apply for the NBI and the worst was it won't be release at the same time but after 2-3 weeks. So James traveled with my father after 3 weeks and in GOD's grace he got it. So now, getting the police clearance from his country, I did a lot of research on how the process to obtain one. We did all the paper required and sent it via DHL. The good thing Daddy Larry (Thank you so much Dad) got a copy of his police clearance so we got a copy earlier than we expected. We still received the reply from FBI (USA) after like 3 months. And this time we already submitted the application in Immigration Cebu.

September 2013. James application was sent back to Cebu from Manila office and was not approved yet because of the signature lacking. The lawyer during the interview forgot to put a date on the paper. So we needed to hang in and wait again for another months.

Remembering all the sweet moments we had.

January 2013, was our first anniversary being a husband and a wife. And for me being a mother as well. There was so much changes in my life from being a simple office worker and a cultural dancer. There were lots of adjustments. Dividing my time for my husband and for my kids. But I will say I am proud of myself...well GOD made me proud of myself because I did it all...say its "a good job".

May 2013, when I passed the Civil Service Examination. I really believe the saying "You reap what you sow". I remember the hard times we had. James trying to be a father and a mother this time. After my work during weekends I can't stay home because I needed to go to school for a review. And James and my family was very supportive. And I did all extra possible things to learn and study. And YES I passed. And thank GOD.

June 2013, finally my "once a dream" dream come true. I was transferred and hired as a teacher in a college school. And I pretty much love the job. Although I missed my work and my workmates but the resent job I have is I am happy and content. :). Another thing happened this month was we were able to visit xylon's Family in Cebu again. We got the chance to visit his Mommy Angel Maria for the second time. It was a fun and another memorable moments. Full of emotions and happiness. Thanks be to GOD.

August 2013, we moved to our own house. Another adjustments since I never been away from home with my parents and other siblings. But oh well, I am married its interesting to discover life just with your own family. We are establishing our own life and family here. And so far, I love it.

November 2013, James permanent Resident Visa here in the Philippines was finally approved. It was a very happy moments  receiving the good news. Finally all the effort was paid off and its one step closer.

December 2013, James received his Permanent Resident Visa I-card. And now its time to work for our boys visa as well. Another thing Xylon's grandma Becky also visited the boys in our house. And the boys got the chance to spend time with their grandma. It made our year-end very fulfilling.

The year is quiet interesting and a bit thrilling. But we face it all with faith in GOD Jesus and believe that HE won't let us down. GOD is truly amazing and always been with us through the whole year.

The first and above all, we thank the HOLY one above that continue to guide us and look at us in every step of the way. We are nothing and will be completely lost without HIM. We "thank you all" for all the people that GOD sends on our way as an instrument to do HIS WILL for us. For our family and friends here in the Philippines and the US, a very very BIG thank you. The thankfulness we felt cannot be expressed into words but truly in our hearts "THANK YOU".

Now a sweet ending 2013 and an amazing a promising beginning of 2014!!

GOD bless us all!!!

New Work and New Surroundings!!

GOD really never fails. I was once dream to be a teacher one day. And yes GOD gave it to me. I never expect I will be come one. And so I find myself here in a new surrounding and new people although some of them I knew already. And this means New Adjustments. But I have no regrets instead I feel so happy and blessed.

Today I started being a teacher in a college school. First it was a bit awkward because I have always this in my mind that I should be correct in everything I say and discuss since students are looking and listening at me. I am starting to research my possible discussion coverage for the subject I am handling. I know I have a whole lot more to do since I need to refresh all what I have learned during my college plus today it is more advance, need to learn new technology as well.

So far my first day of school is quite interesting and ends well. I checked the attendance of my students and giving them some pointers and brief coverage for the subject.

One long day has just been ended and a new long day will just begin. Good luck to me.

GOD please guide me!!

Yay!! I passed the Examination!!

Right this moment I am overwhelm of the good news I heard. Just last night I received a missed call from my teacher in my review class. But I wasn't able to hear it because I was on my way home from work riding a motor cycle. So when I checked my phone and seen the missed call I immediately messaged my teacher apologizing and told him why  I wasn't able to answer. So...he called back and told me the word "CONGRATULATIONS!! You Passed the Exam!!" I was stunned and asked him "Are you sure Sir?" After the examination we were told by the examiner that we will know the result of the exam after three months and yet its just one month passed. So I asked my teacher again "Is it really me Sir?". So my teacher told me "Okay...let me read the name again. NONWEILER EUGIELEN T". And I said... "Ohh... that is really me...! I thank GOD so much for that. I so remember my feeling after the exam.. I felt so easy and at peace... I didn't know the reason and now I know; GOD let me win it for me. And thank HIM so much!!

In the office today; one of my office mate came to me and just shook my hands and I was like "Huh!!" She said congratulations euge from our City you are the only one passed the exam.. The reason why I don't want to celebrate the happiness in the crowd because I don't wanna offend those who did not pass. So I just celebrate within myself.

But anyways above all things... I thank GOD so much. I Believe it is GOD who help me PASSED the Exam!! Praise the Lord above all things!!

Loving my husband so much more!!

April already passed and I am still dividing my time from being a working mom and a wife. I do all my best to give time for my family. Doing my best to be a good wife and a good mom.

Last Month was not so friendly to us. I had been busy in my work as well as to my studies. And my husband James is busy building our house so we can move in this month (hopeful). But I doubted it now since something not good happen to my husband.

Just the other week, my father and my husband was ready to go home after working and building our own house for the whole day. They have each own pedal bike to ride home. My papa went on the road first knowing that James will follow. Since my papa still have some errands to do at home (pasturing the carabao and cow), he didn't wait for James.

While James left there getting his bike, he came across to this roof where there was an un-pound nail. Looking at it, he was itching to make it done. So he climbed into the ladder to get it hammered. As he reached halfway to the top, he lost his balanced and causes the ladder to shake and he had no where to hold. He was thinking either to jump or not. If he won't jump, his head will bump to the corner which will cause more worst. So he jumped, but ALAS it was a wrong timing. As some knows that my husband's legs were in so much surgeries before because of the accident he had been through. He undergone many operations. His right leg works good than his left one. And now the worst is he landed on the floor with his left leg. This leg of him cannot bend no more due the stainless that once being put inside to support and help the bone connect each other. So it ended that he broke his ankle.

James foot after one week!!!

Early in the morning after that accident, my papa built two crutches to help him. It is made out of the wooden stick that James bought for our own house. It is not as comfortable as what we can buy in the store but it was made out of love. James put a cloth around the arms  and handles so it will be a little comfy for him. James feel being so love by my family and I am very much thankful on that.

Crutches my Papa built for James!!

We had his leg x-rayed and yes he had a fracture around his ankle and the doctor said he needs surgery. And James doesn't trust doctors specially around our place and plus the fact that his leg is already been messed before. We went to a massage guy to put back his ankle in place. And it turns out good because after that he can move his foot up and down. Thanks to GOD.

Its already 2 weeks passed by and still he cannot walk by himself. Although time fly so fast but never I missed a time to take care of him. I still manage to divide my time for the extra care for him. It hurts me seeing him in the situation. If I can only carry him every time he moves to one place to another I would. I sometimes took him to town and park to passed time by. I gave him bath every other night (his request since he mainly do nothing for whole day but sit and read the bible). I massage his foot sometimes and it feels good to him. And while doing it, it made me wish if I can only have a share of his pain I would so that it wouldn't be as painful as it is to him". But there's nothing I can do but to be always there for him and love him in that way he will feel as ease.

Took James and the boys in the park after church!!

So April was not as good as the Month of March for us. But still we are thankful to GOD that there is no major worst things happen. Yeah my husband broke his ankle but it could be worst if it was his head. GOD save the month for us. And because of what had happen I am loving my husband James even more.

With our some church friends!!

I took CS Examination!!

I am done taking my Civil Service Examination. Last night I couldn't sleep well thinking that today will be the day.

Yesterday, I spent my whole day with my friend Rose in the City Cafe. She will be taking the exam as well. We were studying for the exam. I was hoping  that some of our classmate will come join with us but they weren't able to.

Anyways the exam was quite difficult. Well, most of the takers said so and I am one of those...hehe. I had been thinking so much of this Exam. That I hope I will pass and all of my classmates and friends who will take too.

During the exam I was nervous because I was almost late. The examiner told me to hurry up. (And to mention, one of the takers wasn't able to come because I saw one vacant sit in front of me). My body was cold and I feel stunned but I pray to GOD to please calm me down. I didn't expect to be late because I thought I was early enough. But I was wrong, maybe it was because I used 25 minutes of it walking in the road and waiting for a ride.

Answering and reading the test paper was really giving me tense feelings. For me it was, because my mind was so much consume on "Am I right?", "Is this correct?" and another thought which driving me nuts was to make sure its not a mess when shading the answer sheet. We were being told the right way to blacken the sheets because the checking machine is very sensitive. So we should keep the answer sheet clean and tidy.

Thank GOD because I got to answer all the questions (To GOD be the Glory). I remember my feeling after the exam. I felt like very light, I feel like I was floating. Maybe part of it was that "finally I am done and no more studying and thinking for the exam".

Outside the campus where the exam was held, I saw my teacher and some classmates in the review center. They were waiting for me and others. We gathered together and say a prayer that GOD would bless this day and the exam and that we will be successful.

For now Only GOD knows. Whatever would be the result everything will be according to GOD's will and his Purpose.

But I pray GOD will grant us the best!!

Today is my Birthday!! March 2013

Today is March 7, 2013. And it is my birthday. As usual my day is okay and I am not getting older yet. I just  feel like getting more grown up and young.

We didn't do any birthday party for me but my husband doesn't forget to made my day special. He talked to me and told me sweet words and pray to GOD for having each other in each arms. We are not blessed with many things on earth but we are truly blessed with so much love and understanding, joy and laughter.

There is no other best gift GOD give to me other than having my family : my husband, my sons, my parents and my other siblings.

Another part of my day was my friends at work celebrated birthday with me. Some of my friends greeted me and showed some old pictures when I was still in the dance troupe. I admit it, I miss the troupe and I sometimes dream of dancing in the stage again (haha). I remember me being silly and joker that made everyone laugh.

I remember early this morning I woke up hearing my name over the radio and thanks to Ate Bethser for announcing my birthday on air.. haha.. It really gave me a smile in my heart. And it made my day special as well.

Above all of these I thank GOD for giving me another year. And I know HE will keep me on his eyes as I will go and face another year of HIS Glory.

One thing I should I accomplish this year!!

Now, its already March and there is one thing I really wanted to get accomplish this year since I have been wanting this to be done for almost 3 years. But because of my busy-ness I couldn't do it right then. And now I am aiming to do it this time.

Well, it is not a very big deal for everybody but atleast for me it is. The thing I am talking about is the CIVIL SERVICE EXAM (CS-Professional). As for now I am enrolling to a review class because I wanted to be prepared. I once took this exam last 2008 (I guess, I couldn't remember) but sad to say I wasn't able to get the passing score. Well, I was not upset about the result because I was not prepared and was not aware of the importance of passing the exam. I thought it was just an exam, just like the quiz in school. And since now that I know , so I wanted to get it this year. My examination will be on April 14, 2013.

I hope GOD will help me get through this one big goal of mine.

My Awesome Valentines Present!!!

My husband is a kind of a sweet person but most of it he doesn't show it. He just make me feel especial in his ways.

Well as February a Heart Day; as they say; Out of my knowledge my husband James secretly buy a thing for me for Valentines Day. We always go grocery in the Mall but this time he really finds a way that I won't be able to come with him instead bring my Papa with. His reason was he doesn't want me to know he will have something for me.

Well Valentines is here and I was surprised to received this. And it really made me special. And who would have not melt the heart to read such touching message. They are such a very sweet and loving family. And I am blessed; very blessed. And I love you all the best way I can. I love you my husband and my two wonderful kulit kids!! :)

365 days being Married!!

As many knows that marriage is an everlasting commitment that you vowed and promised in front of GOD the Almighty. Thus it is a holy bond blessed by the Holy Spirit. Although lots the world today doesn't honor it that much. As we see nowadays lots of marriage been broken by divorce; separated and etc. Everyone has there own reason for breaking it and yet in the eyes of GOD nothing is valid reason at all.

But anyways; I am 365 days being married. Means I am 1 year living not a single status. Those days was a lot of adjustments. Everyday is an adjustment for me and my husband. I know we are so enlove to each other and we love our family but it doesn't mean that problems like misunderstandings never come up. There were ups and downs. Sometimes I feel like I am not free to do things I wanted to but I guess its part of the adjustments; letting go of things I used to do.

There were times I look back my life and it made me miss some of my good old days. Be with a group of friends; dancing; laughing; joking; meeting new friends; exploring new places and adventures. I am not a party girl but I did enjoy bonding with friends once in a while. Those things that really made my singleness colorful and memorable. But I have no regret setting it aside over my family. Because having a family is indeed a new adventure to me; being a mother; a wife; a playmate; and a teacher. Another thing; having a round belly; fitting new big pants; trying hard to melt that fats that gives me a chubby cheek bone; its a sort of adventure; isn't it? (lol)

I know I am still in the first phase of Marriage and I know I still have more adjustments to do in time. As many say that adjustments vary 6 years of being married. But I guess; everyday; every year is an adjustment period. I don't know what lies ahead of us; of us being married. I just do hope that GOD will make our marriage more stronger and fruitful for us and I also; also do hope that we will have many more years to come being together as a family; 50 years you could say.

Above all; I am Happy.

Going on today!!

Few more weeks and its gonna be Christmas again. My favorite Month is coming so wow. Anyways, its been a while I haven't updated my blog. As my world this last few months was turning upside down due to some life barrier as they say.

Anyways things for me now is slowly flowing smooth. My brothers are well good. One already have a job in the  a big mall. And the other one got just a part time job which is pretty good than just a standby and doing nothing but yet needing goods everyday.

I don't remember if I mention here that we are building our own house. Its not that we don't like to live with my parents and siblings. Its just like we wanted to explore life with our own. Living and making things with our own opinions and decisions.

Some update with my first student kid (Xavier)... haha... I remember him at first, he was so excited waking up in the morning because he has a class at 7:30 which is wow to me because I seen in him the excitement and curiosity what's in the School. But that was just in a short time. After a week of going to school and waking up early every morning he feels tired. Every time James woke him up to get ready himself for School he kept saying "I am resting Dad, I am still sleepy".  He even asked me "Mom can I skip class today?" Which is a NO,NO to me... He asked me how come that his classmate skip class but I said he is not his classmate... LOL...  He always get excited when its Friday because he knows that on the following day he doesn't have class and plus he can sleep late at night.

And my other kiddo (Xylon). He also is excited to go to School as well. Although he doesn't go to school this year yet, I can see in him his excitement. He walks around the house with the school bag of his elder brother as if he is going to school. Wearing his brother's School ID and even wear long pants for school. Haha... a goof ball he doesn't even know how to tie his shoes.

And James. We are so happy, well very much thankful to the Heavenly Father. His 13a visa in the philippines already stamped in his passport. It means no need for us to go to Immigration to extend his stay here. Less hassle and less expense. Now we are on the process of applying the same thing for our two boys. We don't know actually what would be the process since I am not the biological Mom but well I believe GOD will help and direct us what to do. As we were applying for James visa we didn't pay a lawyer to help us through. As we bumped to some who done it already and also people around here, saying that we really need a lawyer to somewhat made it faster and less hassle. But paying a lawyer for that is somewhat a heavy financial in our pocket. We tried to actually asked what would be the possible cost when we apply it by agency and said it would be like  90,000 pesos. What!! That's crazy.. then we should practice eating only 3 times a week to save... hahaha. So then we did it by our selves. I did researched everything possibly needed. Much better to be front loaded with things than missing some required docs which is not good because the Immigration is pretty far from our home. We can't just pay a taxi and go home get the paper and back to the immigration that would be so awesome for us but the truth is IT'S NOT.

For me. Things kinda rough for me. Atleast only in my own opinion. It's really different when you wanted to accomplish something but at the moment you can't because you are facing things you need to do. I believe everyone have a dream. And I do have dreams but achieving one dream at a moment is kinda hard for me now. Not that I don't have the urge to do it so but its just that time is not enough. For now on, I will make it as a goal to be accomplish next year. I long to make this done 2 years ago but wow this year will almost end and yet I did nothing about it. I will make it my number one goal for myself, a gift for myself. I wish and hope and pray that it would be GOD's will for me... Who knows.. ONLY GOD knows. But I should not also forget my obligation to my family as a wife and as a mother. Family priority first. Oh wait... GOD first then follows the family.

Anyways an update of my family.

My Husband "I love you like no other "

I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. I will never cease of loving you till our hair turns to gray and breath turns to heavy. There is nothing in this world I could have ask more, than having you and be in your arms always. I will never ask for more leisure and luxuries in life because to me you are far more greater than those earthly things. You are given by GOD to me and so you are the greatest gems GOD had gifted and entrusted me. Thank you for coming into my life and of never giving up on me. And above all I THANK GOD for bringing and guiding you to me to share HIS majestic gift - LOVE. I love you so much hunny James Alex Nonweiler.

Life is slowly getting okay!!

GOD is really good. As we had been in so much downfall this last few days or month but then GOD never really leave us to be fail in the darkness.

My elder brother Jungie is actually a happy, funny and  good dreamer.

My family is slowly recovering from the crash shock. My elder brother was already been release in the detention jail and he promised and will do his best to change in a good ways. I do hope and pray that he will truly change. I believe he can as long as he believe that GOD will make it happen for him. I know how hard he tried to be sided with GOD but the attraction of temptation and bad influences were so high in him. Thus he always fail to come closer to GOD and see His light.

My other brother is also now moving on to his life. I wish him goodluck to his examination next week. He passed for a work and will start to work last week of this month. Congratulation and I am happy for him.

Me and my family (my own). We were in a family day celebration in the school of one of my kid, Xavier. It is family day where parents are invited in the school. There were lots of fun game and ofcourse yummy food to eat. My husband James played fun games along with the other parents and ofcourse I did too. But it was kind hard because I played volleyball. Haha... It's been awhile haven't played this game but oh well it was still fun.

In all things came into our lives this year I keep thanking GOD because HE never fail to support and carry us to be strong. He is our strength in all the times.

GOD Jesus Christ please be always our strength. And keep up in your way. Bring my family and friends with you and held us in your hands so we will never get lost or will lost again.

GOD is truly amazing

Right now we are facing difficulties in life. Not only for me but for my entire family. I truly love my family (parents, brothers and sisters) as I love my own (husband and kids).  Our lives these days is such a struggles.   So much bumps hit in our road that we never expect to come.

Firstly, it started with when my elder brother engaged in a motor accident. We weren't there when it was happened. Some said he was half drunk while driving. And I think its possible. He got hit hard in his head. He was confined in the hospital for a week and decided to go home even if he is not fully okay yet. One reason was financial incapacity.

Second, my younger brother struggled in heart matter. He and his gf were tested. His gf left him for some family reason. It was kind of a state of shock for us because his gf is already so close to the family and they already are 3 years being on. We love her and treated her as one of our family. It hurt us to see that it all ended up like this. I seen and witnessed how my brother cried to me, to my parents, to my cousins and my sisters. I know he tried to be strong and focus. We keep telling him to be and ofcourse to trust in GOD above all. Everything happens for a reason.

Third, my sister who is going to graduate this coming march will have an educational tour in Cebu which will cost couple of thousands. An unexpected happening she wasn't able to be one of the scholars in the City for the reason of failure in her one of the subject. We were obliged to pay for her tuition fee which I didn't expect would happen. So the money we saved for her tours was being used for the tuition fee plus most of it was used for the medication and hospitalization of my brother who engaged in an accident.

Fourth, my elder brother brought some problem in the family that forced us to put him in jail. It was the most frustrating night for me and for the family. He came home drunk and went wild like he didn't have control to himself. It brought anger and trigger the family that put him into the situation.

Its just the quarter of the year but its like a curse for us. It brings so much emotions, frustrations and struggles for us. But inspite of all of this we keep praying and begging GOD to be our guidance and counselor. We believe he is truly the best counsel and guide in every way. We keep hoping that in everything we been through now, it has reasons.

We keep visiting my brother in detention jail to give him courage and talked about how truly GOD is amazing. We keep strong and believe in GOD and have faith. GOD will never leave.

Another to mention while we were visiting my brother in the jail, the Police officer in Tangub asked my husband (James) complete name, age, marital status and his address in the states as well as mine (name and address). The lady police took picture with the Police officer together with me and James. I seen one police outside riding in the police car saying to take James name and address. He said that its for security reason. Since he is a foreigner and living in the City so they are like liable. I thank GOD for this atleast its feels more safer. But oh well nothing is more safe in GOD's hand anyway.

In the positive side, at the night  before the flight for the tours of my sister, her instructor called and asked about her if she is coming or not. Its been set and we had been talked already that she will not join the tour because we have nothing to let her go with. And its okay for her that she wont be able to graduate this year. So her instructor said that he will pay for my sister in the tour provided that I will pay it next month which is okay for me because in that maybe I will have my salary. GOD is truly GOOD. Her instructor even told me to just pay it half at a time then the other half on the next so that it wont be too much for me.

Another blessing received James 13a visa application is approved today. We never expect it because someone told us that it will get approved prolly 3 to 6 months. And oh yeah its just 2 months from the date we applied for it and wow... what a surprise from GOD JESUS we received.

I thank GOD for everything. For all good and bad. Thank you Lord for having a family that rely on you and for having a husband who is very supportive and very understanding. Kind hearted who never give up on us. Who is always there to comfort and keep telling us the bright side in GODs hands. Thank you very much my LORD JESUS CHRIST. Please continue to guide us and bring us to YOUR WILL!!

Xavier singing Lupang Hinirang

Xavier is now in school. It is not easy for him because he doesn't know visayan much and much more in tagalog. We speak at home either visayan or english. He understand some of the visayan.

Learning the Philippine National Anthem is so hard for him. Aside from he doesn't know what it all means; the filipino accent is hard for him but he is learning though.

My James My husband's 33rd birthday!!

Birthday banana cake for my Love Husband!!

Its my husband's 33rd birthday. And it's his second birthday here in the Philippines. He is now adjusting to the surroundings and weather.

James with his Banana cake!!

Ready to blow the candle.....

My family is loving him so much and is used to be with him and the boys. James sometimes miss some of his life back home in the states but me along with my family always here for him. He is loving every moments being with the family and I am so thankful.

Birthday Greetings from sis!!

My sister made him a specialize card just simple but it worth more than a card in the mall. We prepared him just a simple birthday celebration; thanking GOD for a year full of blessings.

Prayer before meals!!!!

Food was being attack.....lol!!

Enjoying.......

Everybody is busy.....

The day was a blessings from GOD.

Xylons 3rd birthday and Papa Boy 53rd birthday

Happy Birthday to my Sweet Baby Xylon. He is 3 now. My baby is "baby no more" because according to him he is now a boy like Kuya Xavier. We love you so much baby ko. we are so happy to have, a sweet child, very helpful and a very loving one. hugs and kisses to you from Mommy and Daddy. Happy Birthday to Papa Boy too. Thank you for being a father to us. Thank you for the hardwork and patience. Thank you for the worries and love. Thank you for being you. We hardly express things to you but know that we love you and we are proud of having a father like you.

Getting stronger!!

Time fly so fast. It's almost one year James and the boys are here in the Philippines and almost half a year we are married. Everyone in the family is seem well adjust. We are getting used of being around, things we learned everyday with everybody. Although there are some times that things seems harder to handle but as what we (James and I) keep telling each other to surrender and throw it all to GOD first hand, things are working well which I believe it is GOD's will.    

Life without problems are nothing as they said. Life is like a rainbow I believe. Different colors, different problems. When our life seems okay and we try to maintain things as it is, then there came worse scenario that could distract us. What frustrates me is that some people around cannot stand us being happy. They seem jealous on how we get through things.

 One of the biggest factor I hate most is those ones who tell me whats the right thing or the best thing for me. People who are happy to pick or point our things I should do. Actually, they don't know exactly what I felt about it. They said they care about me. YES, it's true. But I define it pakialamera, chismosa, tirang, gossips.

What's very annoying to me is when they said I'm taking care of children not my own blood, that I should have had my own. That it's different to have one. That they are not my children. Don't you have heart people? What kind of people are you? So evil? Forgive my words but I'm fed up of things like this. Yes they don't came from my own flesh but I love them to death like my own. Don't you understand that people? I'm sorry, I just wanna voice this out.

So much for that. It only gives me a high blood pressure. Some people are just jealous seeing me happy. That they don't have what I have. But overall, I am thankful to GOD for everything. The happiness I feel today is not like yesterday. And everyday is different.

I'm sorry for my harsh words. But I love James and I love our boys. I married James and I accept everything about him. So people get over it, coz if you can't then you will live your life full of jealousy.

Happy Fathers Day!!

Daddy Larry. I've never meet you in person but I can tell that you are a very good example of a good Dad. You showed what GOD's greatest gift to all your children and that is LOVE. You love your children unconditionally the way GOD wants a father to be. You remain strong for all of them and I so much admire you for being consistent of showing LOVE to them and now for me as well :). I am happy to have you as my father. I love you.

Papa Boy. Thank you for all the things you did for us. For doing hard work just to raise us to be fearful of GOD. For the worries you showed for all of us. Thank you for being a father, a friend to joke around. Thank you for being supportive. We love you.

Daddy James. Your life had been in so much downfall as I say. But you never give up even if it was so hard for you. Your life lost track but you fight to live for our boys. You seek for GOD and you found HIM. Thank you for being strong and being a child of GOD. I love you so much and I will always love you.

Without you Daddies, we'll never be here and experience the glory of GOD through his creature.

Happy Birthday Mama Gloria!!

Happy Birthday to my Mama!! Thank you for being such a good Mom to us. Thank you for the love and care!! We love you so much Ma!! Happy, Happy Birthday!!

I want you to know that I love you and I am so proud of having a Mom like you. You love us unconditionally. I know being the light of the family, you wanted to be strong and work hard so you can provide things for us, and I appreciate it so much. From the time you sent us to school until now you are still consistent to look after us. Even if we can stand by ourselves, you are still making sure that we really can make it. Thank you so much for being like that.

I love you and We love you!! I am proud to be your daughter.....

Eugielene Tulin Nonweiler

How to Pray!!

Pray with a humble heart, don't be like an authority. Only Jesus is in Authority. Most of the times we prayed like we want Jesus to answer it right away. GOD may or may not answer all our prayers and HE has reasons behind. If He answered or rejected our prayer, He has the reason and we don't know it. GOD knows our heart desire even we haven't told HIM. Pray heartily and humbly. Remember GOD speaks in heart not in mind.