Will you give time for him?

One day is composing of 24 hours. When you wake up in the morning, you take 1 hour in arranging your bed and taking a bath. Another 1 hour for breakfast and prepare some stuffs. Then 8 hours for work. 1 hour for lunch. 3 hours for friends. 2 hours for television or watching movies and playing games. A half hour for dinner and 7 hours spend for sleep. How many hours you spend for such activities? Do you still have time to talk to Jesus? To repent and to thank? How long?

Sometimes 24 hours is not enough to spend for our daily schedules. Try to imagine, in 24 hours we only have a half hour to spend for Jesus or sometimes nothing at all. Jesus is always with us, protect us, and watch us 24 hours. We just don’t feel it because we got so busy in many things. Our mind is occupied with the things that we need to be done. Sometimes we work overtime to double it. It is not bad to become busy everyday because it’s a part of our daily life but Jesus is also a part in our life. We have to put space for Jesus to enter in our life.

Take time to pray, to kneel, to repent and to thank Jesus for all the good things, for these things give colors to our lives. And if you do, no matter how hard it is GOD will make it easy for you. Take time to realize that the easiest way of life, is living with GOD.

For all the things that the world gives you that comforts your life today and make you happy, it is GOD who made it to show you that HE really cares despite of having less time to remember him. Let us realize that GOD is the one who has the greatest HEART of all. Let us live life easy by putting GOD on top of everything we do because in GOD we trust then nothing hard at all…..

Service to Fellowmen is a Service to GOD

When we hear the word: SERVICE, what usually comes to our mind is the extension given by our government officials to others because of reasons sometimes we doubt. But I have a point to reveal.

Men can serve not because of their civic status, but their capability of doing so. Riches and fame is not a measure on what you can give to the less fortunate brothers. We can exercise rendering our service by starting the first and foremost principle “Compassion is given to, is not asked”.

Service is not only financial assistance extended to the need, but also it is the genuine effort exerted by individuals to succor those who are in need of succor. Service comes in many forms. Counsel to the confused, err to the pained, enlightenment to the embezzle, encouragement to the lost and hopeless and a lot more.

Service is not given for the benefit of the doer who may expect a payback of his good deeds shown to others. TRUE SERVICE – is the willingness of one’s desire to help people in their emotional, mental, psychological and even spiritual afflictions without expecting anything in return.

TRUE and WHOLEHEARTED SERVICE is what GOD intended us to share. When HE died in the cross to redeem us from our earthly sins, HE gave HIS life without reservations. For me, this is the most unfathomable service. We may not be expected to perform this one of a kind service but as a follower, what kind of service do you intend to give to others? Ask yourself for it is only GOD who can read what is in our hearts, mine is just to remind everyone that, “If you are in the service of your fellow beings, you are giving service to GOD”.

A sudden cry!!

Lord I dont know what to do. I don't know how long shall I wait. I am out of patient. And I am sorry. I just want to make this vocal. I give up my search. As far as I see, the more I work for it the more it goes away from me. And it makes me feel that I am hopeless. Although I really tried to make myself believe that there is hope but then I didn't feel it. I give up searching for that someone I long to have in my life. For if I continue to do it, it makes me think that I am searching for my human and earthly satifaction. The more that I struggle for my search, the more aggressive I become. And I don't want to be aggressive on things. I know you teach me to be patient. But it just happened that I reahed the end point of being patient. And so I am afraid to make mistakes that I would later regret for sounding too rush on things. I need you in my life Lord. Lead me the way. I will be lost without you. For now I should shut off my search. Focus on good things I have, my family, my friends that inspires me. Forget my past and learned from it. Continue to move forward and live my life more on spiritual things. I praised you Lord. I trust you. Forgive me if I sinned. I will once again surrender myself to you LORD (Eugielene)

The Cry!

Lord what you really want me to do? I do everything that I think you like me to be. What have I done to punish me. Until when shall I suffer, until when shall I see the problems of others. For all the good things I have done, I only have one favor I ask from you. Just peace of mind but yet you do not hear. What should I do? I am tired of keeping myself strong, fighting for good but yet you continue to lead me in a rocky road. Is this what you want to see from me? Is this the life you want me to have? I asked you what else should I do. You didn't speak? Do you want me to give up everything I have, leave my family, leave my work and all? Is that would be enough to end my sufferings? I always have the soft heart to listen to others and it hurts me that sometimes I really feel the urge to help but i have nothing to give. Why make me feel like this? I rather die than to continue to see sufferings and feel the burdens the earth bring. I long for change and yet changes weren't for good. I am tired striving for change, and now I don't knowif I can make it happen. A CHANGE FOR GOOD! I am only a small person on earth but I have big dreams for it. Lord, just tell me what you want me to do? I am tired of this life I have now. Until when shall I wait for the light to come my way? Until when shall you lend your ears and make your eyes see me in such agony? Forgive me, for there is no one I can ask this but only YOU. I trust YOU and believe in YOU. Until when shall I suffer for the problems of others? Until when shall I wait to have that Peace of Mind? Do I have to die first to have it? (Eugielene L. Tulin)

Heart vs. Brain

What the mind speaks is what the heart says. But sometimes what comes out from our mouth is not what the heart wanted to. It is so hard to fight against your heart as it often hurts our feelings. The heart tells us what we really feel inside and yet we deny it in order to hide our feelings. Mind is sometimes too pretentious. Especially in LOVE, we try to deny what we have inside for some reason. A reason that bring either good or bad in one self. Falling in LOVE is a free will, YES it is!. And you may continue it as long as you didn't step someone's pride. We all know that the heart is very weak when it comes to LOVE matters. Heart is very sacrificing, very forgiving and is like a martyr. Willing to give everything just to received appreciation or be recognized. Heart prefers to be called blind no matter what as long as feels love and will continue to love. When heart rules in LOVE, it may be dangerous. It could be a reason a man put a bullet in his head for not be able to control the feeling of being broken.

In other hand, the brain is another key in decision-making-process on all the things you do. In LOVE, what your heart feels, the brain or mind will weigh it in order to determine whether it is good or bad. Sometimes practicality is one of the main reasons why the mind deny it to do so. Have you ever experienced to say " I don't LOVE you anymore" but what you feel your heart is totally opposite of what you said. The mind is so good in hiding our feelings. Sometimes the mind can make us strong. But can also lead us to be like a rock. "A ROCK"!!.... "A hard-Hearted-Man" we called it. Being a man like this, we often forgot to show softness and sensitivity to the people around us. Though we feel it inside but we are just too macho to admit it and yet continue to be hard. We all know that the mind is power. But it can make us like a fool. It is like saying "I am not a losser." But yet what you really feel inside you are a losser.

The quest between the HEART vs. BRAIN has no ending. Each of which has something to contribute in oneself to become a better man. It is the man itself to decide which one he wanted to follow or to listen both sides before drawing to actions.


Heart below the mind because heart is sometimes irrational. Mind over heart to make it rational. Heart is just being honest and pure, mind is just being smart and showy.

My heart speaks (for my life)

Lord thank you for all the lessons you bring to my life in the year 2009. I feel so blessed and thankful to you for keeping me still and making me strong for all those times when I felt so down and thinking that I lost everything. I know I am not the only one feeling this way like having bad lucks in almost everything. There were those people experiencing problems harder than mine. And I saw them trying hard to stand up and wanted to start a new life inspite of all those pains and hardships they been through. 2009 already ends and I wanted to start my new year 2010 a new life. I want to tell you, I am so sorry for sometimes questioning your power. What I felt those times was that I am so alone. That you never hear me. I never realized that you never left. I am sorry for being so human. Now I can tell that if all of my friends turn away from me or whatever the world throws in me I know you are always there beside me. I just have to feel and realized it.

For my family, thank you for being an inspiration. Thank you for the problems you shared to me, for it makes us feel a family. I will continue to fight life's misfortune and will continue to love you and protect, you my family.

For all my friends, thank you for making me laugh and making me feel loved. For making me feel special. For reminding me that life is worthy. For telling that I am beautiful inside and that I deserve a good reward.

For the man who bring so much pains and heartaches in my life, I already forgive you. As you also a human that commit mistakes. I just wish that you won't do it to other anymore before its too late. That every mistakes you did will throws back at you, flashing back in front of you. As I told you " live life in a good way".

For my future, I will continue for being Eugielene. I will try to be more strong. I will stay the way I am. I will continue to be good. I will continue to love and maybe get hurts in the process.

And lastly, I will continue to search that someone for me which is my happiness. Someone that I will love and will love me in return. A love in both body and soul. I am hoping to meet you on 2010 the next chapter of my life.

Once again, Goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010.
Peace on Earth, and Peace of mind.
GOD speed.

Its me
EUGIE

My Life

All my life, I am doing the good things like what is said in the holy bible. But I noticed that in all my problems and pains, the more I draw near GOD the more my problem become complicated. I can't help myself but to question GOD. I am only human, I think I reach the peak of my patience. But I am scared. I want to live my life free from worries. I hope I can pass this problem I have now. They said after I pass though a very hard problem, then time for you to receive surprises and happiness. I hope it will come true. I don't want to blame GOD for all my problems, but I already did. So, I am sorry GOD. I know there are punishment in every sin. As I always think, I shoulder problems which is not mine. I didn't even count on you that you died in the cross not for your sin but to save us. I AM SORRY.

What tomorrow could bring!

Nobody can predicts what will really happen today and tomorrow. I was once asked myself when I was in my college, "what will happen to me after I graduate?". Some of my dreams and wanna to be's didn't happen. But some also came true.

In my journey today, I really don't know where will I be going. It's so hard to say that I really have to do this and that. Because I am thinking of things beyond my power. It's kinda frustrate me to see the hardships of the people sorrounds me.

I know I have more than words to say here but I have to cut it until there, because I don't want to sound so emotional. I want to be myself as a cheerful one.

GOD bless everyone and more power!! I will be posting more on this, I promise!!

Interesting book

Hello guys, sorry to take so, so long to update my blog. I actually have lots of work to do in the office plus, as usual, my dance practices and shows. I don't want to boast but honestly we feel like a mini celebrity not only in our City but also to our neighboring ones.

Anways, I have read this quote from a famous writer Leo Buscaglia in his book titled "Born for Love"

"Knowlegde comes by way of ignorance, so we ought to be encouraged by what we don't know"

For me, it's perfectly true. Why? It is because, being an ignorance of one thing, our curiousity becomes bigger. And because of curiosity you got knowledge about such thing. Same thing goes from the quote "You learn from your mistake". But you know, I had talked to someone who doesn't believe that mistake can make you learn. I don't know his explainations behind. But he said that "why wait to make mistake in order to be learned if you can learn without doing a mistake". I got his point. What he wanted to say is that, we can learned without doing wrong. That if we know that its not good to do so, why go?, better do the right one. But in some instance not all situations are like that. There are some things that you can tell that you are right but in the end it was a mistake. And after that you can tell then that "Ah, I made a mistake" . And from that mistake you become cautious that next time you really need to consider some areas. And one thing, somethimes MISTAKES can make you stronger. It somehow give you courage that you would be better next time.

I have read lots of books, because it is so interesting to learn and know the opinion or simply an advice to someone you knows best than us. In that way, it can make us awake in reality.

See you next time guys.

A Touchy Story

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what is it?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know.. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $20.00 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $10.00 ?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behaviour.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.

How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.'
No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. '
It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10.00 you asked for.' The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father. 'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied. 'Daddy, I have $20.00 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.' The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son,and he begged for his forgiveness.
It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $20.00 worth of your time with someone you love.If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.
But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family...

Marriage Joins Two People in the Circle of its Love (Edmund O'Neill)

Marriage is a commitment to life,
the best that two people can find and bring out in each other.
It offers opportunities for sharing and growth
that no other relationship can equal.
It is a physical and an emotional joining that is promised for a lifetime.
Within the circle of its love,
marriage encompasses all of life's most important relationships.
A wife and a husband are each other's best friend,
confidant, lover, teacher, listener, and critic.
And there may come times when one partner is heartbroken or ailing,
and the love of the other may resemble
the tender caring of a parent or child.
Marriage deepens and enriches every facet of life.
Happiness is fuller, memories are fresher,
commitment is stronger, even anger is felt more strongly,
and passes away more quickly.
Marriage understands and forgives the mistakes lifeis unable to avoid.
It encourages and nurtures new life,
new experiences, new ways of expressing
a love that is deeper than life.
When two people pledge their love and care for each other in marriage,
they create a spirit unique unto themselves which binds them closer
than any spoken or written words.
Marriage is a promise, a potential made in the hearts of two people
who love each other and takes a lifetime to fulfill

The Art Of A Good Marriage ( Wilfred Arian Peterson)

Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens.
A good marriage must be created.
In marriage the little things are the big things.
It is never being too old to hold hands.
It is remembering to say "I love you" at least once a day.
It is never going to sleep angry.
It is at no time taking the other for granted;
the courtship should not end
with the honeymoon, it should continue through the years.
It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives.
It is standing together facing the world.
It is forming a circle of love that gathers the whole family.
It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice,
but in the spirit of joy. It is speaking words of appreciation
and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways.
It is not looking for perfection in each other.
It is cultivating flexibility, patience,understanding and a sense of humour.
It is having the capacity to forgive and forget.
It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow old.
It is a common search for the good and the beautiful.
It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal,
dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal.
It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.

Question: Is using sex to get what I want all that bad?

Answer:

Yes, First of all, sex is not a "strategic move," like in a game. It is so much more. GOD created sex for a husband and wife. It is powerful part of their commitment, love and intimacy.

Secondly, sex is way too powerful to "use" to get what you want. Outside of marriage it can easily "backfire" on you, resulting in emotional letdown, guilt, an unwanted pregnancy or many possible diseases.

Nice Quotes

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

Being Silly is sometimes fun!!

Nowhere to go

I really felt this way like I am in the middle of nowhere. No where to go. Sometimes I just wake up feeling so lonely and dont know the reason why is it so. I have so many prayers. If only GOD can answer or talk to me directly maybe he would say " Your prayers are turning me up side down." I sorry LORD., its just that there's no one I can talk to. I believe in you.

Sometimes, I have this feeling to like something but after some hour change my mind. Huh, sometimes I really dont understand myself. But then there's nothing I can do about it because its my personality. I just hope that everything will be okay for me..

I come to meet you (by: Helen Steiner Rice)

I come to meet You, God,
And as I linger here
I seem to feel You very near;
A rustling leaf, a rolling slope
Speak to my heart of endless hope.

The sun just rising in the sky,
The waking birdlings as they fly,
The grass all wet with morning dew
Are telling me I just met You.

And, gently, thus the day is born
As night gives way to breaking morn;
And once again I've met you, God,
And worshipped on Your holy sod.

For who could see the dawn break through
Without a glimpse of heaven and You?
For who but God could make the day
And softly put the night away?

Quite Disappointed

In everyday life sometimes we can say that we must do the best that we can. But sometimes its frustrating that we failed and feel quite disappointed. I know, everyone has this in mind to be somebody else. ANd I admit that I am dreaming to be somebody else.

I've long to change myself, to change EUGIELENE to somebody else but I never thought that the result make me disappoint. I feel like a dump after all. It wasn't so bad, but I feel that its not good at all.

Maybe somebody would say that he or she dont understand me. Yeah, its true,.. I agree. Because even me doesn't understand myself. I dont know where to place, where to start. I dont think if I need somebody else to fix me up or is there someone who can fix me. I am like a piece of paper teared down. Im like a broken glass.

What should I do? Do I have to wait what might come into my way? Do I have to be in a corner, just to keep silence? Where should I place myself?

I have so many questions that haven't answered. I have so many prayers and hopes. And I do keep praying and hoping that someday.. that someday...and someday everything will not be the same again. That my wheel of life will be at the top again.

Hey, I just wanted to say "hi to everyone who likes to read my blog. I know, it will take time again before I can update my blog but I will try to if I have a time.

I been so busy doing this fronline services. This first week of August will be the launching and I need to produce 50 copies of the handbooks and 100 copies of the booklets. I know its gonna be busy but I hope I can make it before the deadlines comes. So, as of now pray for me and wish me luck in everything.

GOD bless everyone!!
its me
EUGIE

Time to Change

This is just a simple word but honestly hard to do. Time to change doesn't really mean to change ones self. There are some areas in our selves that we have to somehow change to make us a better person. Sometimes we can say to ourselves that we are too good that somebody abuse and use our goodness and kindness. I was once experienced that. I am good to everyone. But sometimes it gives me sense that it is not right to be always good. It is not right to always say "YES" everytime when somebody asked you something or needs your help. It is not bad at all to say "NO" once in awhile. Why? Maybe you wonder why......... And to my dear readers, I want you to think of it... Because it hard to explain my own perception and point of views.

Another thing I wanted to change about me is my being innocent. Maybe its time to open up my eyes to something I am not familiar of or have no sense at. I don't want to stay ignorant. I am mature enough to know the world and what life brings. But I assure that what changes it would be, its not for worse.

I know and I feel so blessed to think that there are someone out there who really dont want me to change because they want me to be me as what they used to knew me at the very first time.

To David, thank you so much for being so good to me, I know it brings impact on your mind when I put the quote "Time to Change". You were thinking that I was thinking in a negative way. And that evil thoughts came up in my mind. It doesnt mean change myself from good to worse. No, its not. I love myself and I love my family. Having a friend like you is like a treasure. I will stay good.

And to George Riley., I wanted to thank you too for the concerned you are showing upon me. We knew each other not too long but I can sense that you are a good person to rely on too. You somehow inspire me in somethings in my life. And I really hope that part of you will not change. And I wanted to assure you I will never change for worse. I just wanted to grow up and face the world.

I hope that I am be welcome of this world of constant changes.

GOD bless everyone and more power!!