Quite Disappointed

In everyday life sometimes we can say that we must do the best that we can. But sometimes its frustrating that we failed and feel quite disappointed. I know, everyone has this in mind to be somebody else. ANd I admit that I am dreaming to be somebody else.

I've long to change myself, to change EUGIELENE to somebody else but I never thought that the result make me disappoint. I feel like a dump after all. It wasn't so bad, but I feel that its not good at all.

Maybe somebody would say that he or she dont understand me. Yeah, its true,.. I agree. Because even me doesn't understand myself. I dont know where to place, where to start. I dont think if I need somebody else to fix me up or is there someone who can fix me. I am like a piece of paper teared down. Im like a broken glass.

What should I do? Do I have to wait what might come into my way? Do I have to be in a corner, just to keep silence? Where should I place myself?

I have so many questions that haven't answered. I have so many prayers and hopes. And I do keep praying and hoping that someday.. that someday...and someday everything will not be the same again. That my wheel of life will be at the top again.

Hey, I just wanted to say "hi to everyone who likes to read my blog. I know, it will take time again before I can update my blog but I will try to if I have a time.

I been so busy doing this fronline services. This first week of August will be the launching and I need to produce 50 copies of the handbooks and 100 copies of the booklets. I know its gonna be busy but I hope I can make it before the deadlines comes. So, as of now pray for me and wish me luck in everything.

GOD bless everyone!!
its me
EUGIE

Time to Change

This is just a simple word but honestly hard to do. Time to change doesn't really mean to change ones self. There are some areas in our selves that we have to somehow change to make us a better person. Sometimes we can say to ourselves that we are too good that somebody abuse and use our goodness and kindness. I was once experienced that. I am good to everyone. But sometimes it gives me sense that it is not right to be always good. It is not right to always say "YES" everytime when somebody asked you something or needs your help. It is not bad at all to say "NO" once in awhile. Why? Maybe you wonder why......... And to my dear readers, I want you to think of it... Because it hard to explain my own perception and point of views.

Another thing I wanted to change about me is my being innocent. Maybe its time to open up my eyes to something I am not familiar of or have no sense at. I don't want to stay ignorant. I am mature enough to know the world and what life brings. But I assure that what changes it would be, its not for worse.

I know and I feel so blessed to think that there are someone out there who really dont want me to change because they want me to be me as what they used to knew me at the very first time.

To David, thank you so much for being so good to me, I know it brings impact on your mind when I put the quote "Time to Change". You were thinking that I was thinking in a negative way. And that evil thoughts came up in my mind. It doesnt mean change myself from good to worse. No, its not. I love myself and I love my family. Having a friend like you is like a treasure. I will stay good.

And to George Riley., I wanted to thank you too for the concerned you are showing upon me. We knew each other not too long but I can sense that you are a good person to rely on too. You somehow inspire me in somethings in my life. And I really hope that part of you will not change. And I wanted to assure you I will never change for worse. I just wanted to grow up and face the world.

I hope that I am be welcome of this world of constant changes.

GOD bless everyone and more power!!

Life and Destiny

Palmists say that one's destiny can be read in his life lines on the left hand. Wise men say "One cannot taste the sweetness of life's sweet if he had not tasted the bitterness of life's bitter".

It is true that we can give the best we have after we experienced frustrations and heartaches. "Have courage", most spiritual advisers say.

A teacher grows through his experiences with the students and other people with him or around him. He learns from the pains.

A student learns from his experiences and the past mistakes.

It is surprising that bad things happen to good people. You hear it everywhere.... in the family, in the community and even in the church. Life's unfairness touches anyone regardless of anything.

However, GOD has good news for those who are persecuted in one way or another and have suffered for justice and righteousness' sake. They will be especially blessed and gloriously and abundantly rewarded. He reminds us to hold unto HIM faithfully with love for HIM and for our neighbor. To perform the greatest miracle in our lives, we obey faithfully the 4 great laws of success in Og Mandino's "Greatest Miracle in the World".

1. Count your blessings.
2. Proclaim your rarity.
3. Go another mile.
4. Do anything with Love 'coz Love is the greatest....

One day in our lives we will realize the truth that GOD really will give us what we need, thus, our hidden desires and human longings will be fulfilled.

Cheer up!!! Smile and be Happy!!

(VCF)

Know what "Reality" is?

In this world, maybe it is free to fantasize what your future would be. But sometimes its more recommendable to open your eyes and wake up and face the reality. The REALITY, which are sometimes harsh and sometimes gentle. It is sometimes recommended to think and see the world and what it brings. But sometimes, for me, I feel more good when just dreaming of fantazy. Because I know in my dream, every single detail is all romantic, but not in real...

So, here is some of the reality that world brings...

Guys can live without LOVE but not without SEX;
Girls can live without SEX but not without LOVE.
Guys give LOVE to get SEX;
But
Girls give SEX to get LOVE.
So SAD but TRUE. :(

This is true in real. Well, part of human behavior between men and women.

A message to my father

Right from the start, I know how hard you have worked for us. And I know you have done everything just for us. And I understand why you sometimes are so strict to us when it comes to our education. Maybe it is because you don’t want us to experience the sufferings you were experiencing during your time.

I remember the time when I was still in high school. I asked you, that I would like to go to school as a working student. And you strongly disagree because you said that you can handle our education. Although as what I see is not. It was so difficult. You were also thinking at the time that maybe the reason why I wanted to go as a working to student because I want my freedom so that I can so whatever I wanted to.

No! It’s not like that. I am not asking it for the reason to escape from your rules and regulations. What I wanted was just to help you. Purely just that. I tried to make you understand but then you refused to listen. I understand you coz maybe it was your pride and ego.

But it really breaks my heart to see you working hard. You even make the night like a day just to get extra income. And honestly, I was not happy to see you as if happy but so stressed. You were just pretending. I was so young but I feel what you feel. I know how great was the burden you had in your shoulder.

And do you remember the letter I left in the altar? It was the first letter I wrote for you and for mom. And it was the first time I expressed the feeling I feel awkward to tell you both. A letter expressing how much I love you and so thankful.

And now, for the second time around, I am not shamed nor feel awkward to tell you “How much I love you”. I LOVE YOU DAD!! I love you. And please don’t work hard as what you used to before, because you are not alone, I am here now. We will work together. And share with me the burden you feel. You are not alone now.

And please don’t ever think that I long to leave home. It’s always been my pleasure to get home with DAD, MOM, sisters and brothers around. I know time will come that I will have to leave home but that doesn’t mean that it’s the “END” or to forget you. Never! I will still be around. You will always be my father.

Dad, I am always been proud of you. I am proud to call you my DAD. I am not ashamed to show the world that you are my DAD, my FATHER, my PAPA. And I will so my best to make you proud of me. To make you feel worthy. I may not be your famous daughter but I will make you a famous father.

We are not rich in money and in wealth but we are surely rich in love and discipline. That makes you the famous father.

I have so much more to tell but I can’t as I am hardly make this straight because I am shedding tears.

Always remember………………..
I LOVE YOU PAPA straight from my heart.
I have no regrets.

Your daughter,
EUGIELENE

Twin Fiona and Fayne

This pics I am posting here is the twin baby of my Ate Arcelie. Their names are Fiona and Fayne. They were named by Ate Jenjen who is now living in London with her husband.

The purpose I am posting this is upon the request of my Aunt Arcelie which I like to do too. Well, I already posted their pictures here before when they were still 2 months old. I think you can find it in the archives section.

Another reason why Im posting this is for Ate Jenjen. Hello ate Jenjen, here are twin fiona and fayne. Actually, I have a lot of their pics but I got no chance to post it here because it cannot fit here so much. But if you want to see the other pic its in the flicker in the left side of this blog as well as jacob, jason and Ate Arcelie.

Anyways, Ate Jenjen if pwede may I have your email add para next time kung naa ko picture nilang fayne

ug fiona I can send it directly in your email. Because what I can post here is just a minimal number of pics..

GOD Bless you ate Jenjen and to Kuya Paul too.

Peace and Love of GOD be with you all always..!!

Mao ni ako email add ate jenjen eugie_3784@yahoo.com

SEX, FAMILY and LOVE in accordance to GOD

Sex

It’s on billboards and TV, in magazines and movies. It’s in the music we listen to, and floods the internet. Sex is suggested by styles of dress. It’s been used to destroy the innocence of children and has made a mess of way too many lives.

Sex is definitely here to stay. Easy to get, anytime with whomever, no commitment, and no responsibility.

But sex has come a long way from the original design GOD intended. That’s right – believe it or not, sex was designed by GOD. He created men and women different physically for the purpose of sexual intimacy. Although one purpose for the sexual relationship is for bringing children into the world, GOD also planned for sex to be pleasurable.

Everything that GOD created has purpose. But it also has order. GOD’s design for sex, then, must be enjoyed within the boundaries of marriage, love, and a lifetime of commitment. Beyond this, sex results in confusion, conflict and chaos.

Outside marriage, sex does not build up self-worth, but rather destroys it. Those who use it as currency to “buy” things they want emotionally or physically end up bankrupt.

Sex that us practiced outside of GOD’s plan has long term consequences, like the heartache of unwanted pregnancies, abortion, rape and other forms of sexual abuse. Then there is the long list of tragic sexually transmitted diseases such as HIV/AIDS.

GOD’s design for sex is something quite the opposite and a whole lot better! Those who wait until marriage not only avoid the dangers of premarital sex, they are also setting themselves up for a lifetime of discovery, satisfaction and fulfillment within marital love. And that’s something worth waiting for

“If it feels good do it, right? Besides, we’re in love.” Thought 1

* There’s a lot of confusion about sex. But GOD’s plan is clear. He made sex for a husband and wife. This physical union is part of the commitment these two people share.

GOD”s desire is for you to be pure in every area of your life, including your sexuality.

* If you make the choice to wait to have sex until you are married, you will find that GOD is in the business of keeping you pure and helping you out when you are tempted. He offers strength and places in your heart the desire to do what’s right.

* If you have already had sex outside of marriage, GOD is in the business of second chances. He offers forgiveness and a fresh start.

If you have ever been forced to have sex, GOD is in the business of restoring what has been stolen from you. He offers healing and freedom from the pain of the past.

“It’s your choice” Thought 2

Family

The family is the most important social structure of any society. The choice of a lifetime marriage partner is certainly one of the most important decisions a person can make.

Every family is unique, with each marriage partner bringing experiences and values from his or her own family. Unfortunately, there is no such thing as a perfect marriage, a "marriage made in heaven." There are, however, principles that, if followed, will help each family to be all that GOD intended it to be.

First, is the foundation of love. Jesus demonstrated this principle by laying down his "rights" when he came to earth to live as a man and died onthe cross. If we truly love our spouse and our children, we would be living to lay down our lives so that they mights live in some emergency situation. The true test, however, is if we lay down our rights and demands on others inthe everyday situations of life. Love is proven not just by the words we say, but also by our actions.

Second, is the foundation of respect. Family members must show respect for each other, even when there is disagreement on a particular matter. This is where healthy communication plays an important role. If we offend in any way, we need to quickly ask forgiveness.

Third, is the foundation of commitment. No matter what happens, commitment is necessary for a family to survive. There are many voices in contemporary society that tell us if the marriage is not working, just get out. But this is not the solution. GOD is the solution and help can be found through prayer, studying GOD's word, and the wise counsel of those who love GOD.

Fourth, before you marry, be at peace with your own family as much as is possible. Unresolved conflicts will often be reflected later in the relationship you have with your husband/wife, children and in-laws. Ask forgiveness of those you have offended and forgive those who have offended you, no matter how deeply you have been hurt. Freedom comes when we learn to forgive others in the same way that GOD has forgiven us.

"I just can't get along with my family. I can't wait to leave home." Thought 3

Love

According to psychologists, the most basic human need is to love and be loved. There is no power greater than love. It can motivate people to do things for others they wouldn't normally do. Some even give up everything for the sake of the one they love.

But if love is such a beautiful thing, so essential to life, why is there so little if it in the world? Why is there so much hate? The answer is simple. True love is more than a sentimental, gushy feeling. Love is a decision, a choice we each must make. Teh greatest demonstration of love is to give our life for the person we love. GOD did that. Even before we were born, he demonstrated his great love for us when he gave his only son JESUS to die on the cross for our sins so we could have forgiveness and eternal life inhim. That is what love is. It gives, selflessly, even sacrificially. It unconditionally provides for the one that is loved.

This kind of love comes only from GOD, for GOD's very being is love. So when men and women rebel against GOD by settling up their own value system, rejecting the authority of GOD, they lose the very source of true love, that is GOD.

Away from the source, love becomes temporary rather than lasting. It becomes selfish and demanding. It seeks what it wants rather than the good of the one that is loved. It takes, rather thangives.

But when we connect with GOD, his love enables us to love others as he loves, even our enemies. We can love others without expecting or demanding anything in return. GOD's love gives and forgives. It is constant, dependable, and lasting. It fulfills and it satisfies the deepest need.

This kind of love is free and available. We only need to come and connect with GOD through his son JESUS CHRIST, and that love will flow freely in and through our hearts to others.

Getting rid of boredom!!

During boring times, I think the best thing I do is to take picture. Pose it like this and post is like that... I dont care how it looks atleast boredom gones with fake smiles and feelings hee heehee




Anyway, I dont remember when did I took this picture. I think it was last Month when I was in City Cafe 1 and then City Cafe 2. I am not so sure. But atleast nothing is change in my face. But actually, I was so bored at the time, and what you can see here is that I was like so enjoy.. Well, this is a fake feeling.. hee hee hee

Anyway, here is something I wanted to share to you especially girls like me. and for you to think .....

There is a girl who fall enlove to a stranger. Then there came another man who always make her day bad and ruins everything in her. Then this stranger will suddenly appear and help her and make her smile again. She wanted to ask this stranger but he is always silent, (a type of one question-one answer). And it happen to be that the stranger and the man she hated the most were friends since kindergarten. She was always laugh out in the street because of this man she hated always did something wrong for her. There is nothing she can do but to cry and cry. Then again this stranger came and lean her his shoulder to cyr on and let her borrow the handkerchief.

And so on.. and so on... The girl fall enlove the stranger but the stranger is also fall enlove to someone else. What happen is that the man that she hated the most fall enlove to her.....

What do you think to this LOVE TRIANGLE? What is the best thing to do and who is the nest one to choose!!

Take note: The girl got to know this man he hate, and she find out that he is not totally a bad person, he is sweet and romantic but just wild sometimes and she is used to it. But this stranger is like her hero and a knight in shining armour..

Why is it.....!!

Well, my day is not so fine honestly. I just woke this morning feeling so sad, its like I was carrying the earth. I dont know the reason why I felt it. It just happen the moment I open my eyes. And until I arrived in the office the same feeling I have. Although there were my friends who tried to make me smile and it somehow help.

But why is it like this?

Well, this is not only the first time I felt this way. Many times. But I just let it pass. But I feel different today, does it have meaning?... Well, as usual, I will just imagine and think what will happen... I often made a conlusion out of all my feelings..... always be "maybe its like this......, maybe its like that...." and I cant help myself but to come up in many conclusions. You know, advance thinking... They said that "its better to be advance than late".

Maybe this is just the fruits of my many imaginations. Maybe effect of my burdens. Abstract burdens. See, this is one of my conclusion.

So, nothing will change I will still have to make this pass and see what happen. I always like this. Beside, within my self I pray that maybe everything is for GOOD...

"EUGIELENE, Eugie" I need to trust GOD on everything..., He is the only one knows everything.
I will just sleep on this.....

Our Trip in Dumaguete

Our trip in Dumaguete City last April 26 to May 2 , 2009 was fun and very exciting. We went there to join the 1st Internationl Dance Exchange Workshop. Its about exchanging culture dance in the people in the world. This is created so that people in the other country will know our culture and folks as well as the openness and acceptance of the culture in other countries.

People in Dumaguete is really very welcoming. Especially the mayor of Valencia City, He was so good and nice. Thanks for your warm acceptance. Our show there was very uploaded. I never thought that there plaza will be crowded. Lots of people were there to watched the show. By the way, we are not the only one who dance that evening. We are five performers, two groups in the Philippines: (Sinanduloy Cultural troupe and Batangan Dance troupe), one group in Sri Lanka (Sri Lankan Dance troupe), one group in Singapore (Persadaku Dance troupe), and the last is... ohhh I forgot what is that troupe again.. Im sorry.. but Im sure you guys are really a good performers too... anyway, this show was held April 28 in the evening. Our dinner was after the show but its okay because before we start we had a hard snack...

Our next show was april 30 in Tanjay City. This place was a very nice one to stay. Though its a little far from where we had stayed. But in the trip going there was fun. We are all six performers, added by the China group (called Xiamen Xiao Pai Lu Dance Troupe)... Everything here was really good. We just had a little problem in the back stage because the space was so small for all of us... Although there is an air condition its still so hot there maybe because we are too many.

Anyways, until next time of my life story here. An update.. As of now.. I cant write many words because I have a problem right now but not too big...

Thank you!

Thank you for the smile
That used to greet me each day.
Though the smile was now taken away
By someone who's in your way

Thank you for the best way
That makes you a special part of me.
Though the part was now taken away
By someone who's in your way.

Thank you for the love
That used to inspire me each day
Though the love was now taken away
By someone who's in your way.

Thank you for the sweet memories
That used to remind me each day
For I know, sooner they will fade away
For there is someone who is also waiting in my way.

Super tense...

During the day, we are so busy preparing our props and designing our costumes. We sacrificed our lunch time just to have a practice in the stage. Its the only way we can use the stage because lots of agencies are already been scheduled.

We took our lunch at past 2:00 in the afternoon. It was fun actually because of the food Bulalo... Anyways, during the contest proper it started at exacly 7:00 in the evening. I know we weren't ready for the competition. I can sense it because everybody under the power of tension. And me too. It was funny because I have been in lots pop dance competition but I still felt this way. We need to jump and jump to warm up our body and to get rid of self nervous.

We prayed for all the participants to have present of mind and no more mental block. The dance was then so fun because we were applauded by the judges. We got the second place. Supposedly, we are the first, I mean the champion, there somebody in the other agency file a petition for us because of just one props we used. It is not a hand props. But its okay, inour hearts we are the champion. And we did have fun.

Another thing is, I was so surprised because I never thought that my mama, my cousin, my sisters and my auntie and my niece will be there too to see me dance. WoW, for the first time in my life they saw me dance a pop. I was so happy.... They only saw me dancing a folk dance. I treat them for a snack then tour them to the City plaza. I was the tour guide.

I still have to get a copy of the video that my friend took during our dance. Sad because he wasnt to make a video of the whole dance because his camera was out of memory space. But its okay, because I saw the vid and was so nice...

It was a very , very good day for me. Only GOD knows my happiness....

Its me then,
EUGIE

Additional pics

These are the pics I wasnt able to download last time. Today We had a dance practice for the Pop dance competition this coming Sunday. The plan for tomorrow is to go to the mall for the costume then proceed to rehearsals again.

Christmas Choral Competition

Hello Friends. I got here a picture when I was in the Hotel in Iligan City for our cultural show there. Actually, I still have more pics but I got problem in downloading them. I only used my phone to send it here. But I will try to do it again nad hope will work.

Anyways, lastnight was the Pamaskong Handog Choral Competition for both Local and National Employees here in our City. We got the third place in the choral and fourth place in best in Costume. I wish I did got the chance to take pics but I was so busy receiving the raffles for draws. All presentations were really intertaining. They are so lovely in gowns. I wish I could wear one of those gowns next year. (Ohhh... how would I look...hhmmmm..)

So, lastnight because of my busyness I forgot to eat my dinner that's why at 2:00 pm, my stomach is knocking. I just had a small pack of a dice hopia to eat. I forgot to have my dinner, I was preparing this giveaways for the judges then prepared the consolation prizes and the Door Prizes. When I got home, that was the time I had my dinner.

During the raffle draw, I was assigned to take note of the winners. And it was hard because I couldnt see the paper, big lights were off. So, instead I used my phone to make lights. 10 lucky persons got the 10 consolation prizes then another 10 got the door prizes. oh, how I wish I win lastnight. hee hee hee... But, its not new to me, as I know I am not lucky when it comes to things like this..so no wonder... But if I win, that would be a BIG SURPRISE to me.. ha ha ha ha.

Well, the program ended at past 12:00 in the evening. After I scort the judges to their rooms for rest, then time for me to go home too. I arrived home at almost 3:00 am.

I need more energy to work everyday. GOD give me the strength I need. GUIDE me always.

The Show...

Our show in Iligan City was quite well. We just got a problem in the stage because it was so small for us to dance. But everything goes well. an Uploaded dance presentations. Lots of people watching the cultural expo. There were two participants; (SInanduloy troupe and Bag-ong Ozamiznon Truope). Supposedly we will have a back to back show in the evening but our trainer told the facilitator that we should present at 3:00 in the afternoon. So, we did.

Then after the show, went back to the hotel where we stay then sweet dreams...... Early in the morning we went back to Tangub.. I was fall asleep while in a travel. I sleep in the bus....

Update.. update and update

I havent been here for long. I think I need to put some words here once in a while. Well, nothing is new to me so far. Still the same busy in my dance practices and to my work....

Its raining here almost everyday. Well, its really christmas here. The streets are very WOW... and awesome...

I wish be happy this christmas..

EUGIE

A Glass of Milk

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry.

He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door.

Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, How much do I owe you?

You don't owe me anything, she replied. "Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness."

He said..... "Then I thank you from my heart."

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also.. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Many years later that same young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled! They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease.

Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room.

Dressed in his doctor's gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once.

He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to her case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won.

Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take The rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words.....

"Paid in full with one glass of milk" (Signed) Dr. Howard Kelly.

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: "Thank You, God, that Your love has spread broad through human hearts and hands."

There's a saying which goes something like this: Bread cast on the waters comes back to you. The good deed you do today may benefit you or someone you love at the least expected time. If you never see the deed again at least you will have made the world a better place - And, after all, isn't that what life is all about?

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.....


GOOD FRIENDS ARE LIKE ANGELS, YOU DON'T HAVE TO SEE THEM TO KNOW THEY ARE THERE.

A Friend's Promise

If you need to talk,
I’ll listen.
If you need to cry,
I’ll hold you.
If you feel lost,
I’ll help guide you.
If you need to be angry,
I’ll let you.
If you’re feeling afraid,
I’ll comfort you.
If you’re feeling attacked,
I’ll be your defense.
If you need to lean awhile,
I’ll give you a shoulder.
If you’re feeling unsure,
I’ll be your confidence.
If you’re feeling alone,
I’ll be the friend who won’t leave you.
If you need to learn to trust again,
I’ll prove to you that you can.

Remember Me This Way (Jordan Hill)

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all

Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind

If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares


And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You jus believe