Going on today!!

Few more weeks and its gonna be Christmas again. My favorite Month is coming so wow. Anyways, its been a while I haven't updated my blog. As my world this last few months was turning upside down due to some life barrier as they say.

Anyways things for me now is slowly flowing smooth. My brothers are well good. One already have a job in the  a big mall. And the other one got just a part time job which is pretty good than just a standby and doing nothing but yet needing goods everyday.

I don't remember if I mention here that we are building our own house. Its not that we don't like to live with my parents and siblings. Its just like we wanted to explore life with our own. Living and making things with our own opinions and decisions.

Some update with my first student kid (Xavier)... haha... I remember him at first, he was so excited waking up in the morning because he has a class at 7:30 which is wow to me because I seen in him the excitement and curiosity what's in the School. But that was just in a short time. After a week of going to school and waking up early every morning he feels tired. Every time James woke him up to get ready himself for School he kept saying "I am resting Dad, I am still sleepy".  He even asked me "Mom can I skip class today?" Which is a NO,NO to me... He asked me how come that his classmate skip class but I said he is not his classmate... LOL...  He always get excited when its Friday because he knows that on the following day he doesn't have class and plus he can sleep late at night.

And my other kiddo (Xylon). He also is excited to go to School as well. Although he doesn't go to school this year yet, I can see in him his excitement. He walks around the house with the school bag of his elder brother as if he is going to school. Wearing his brother's School ID and even wear long pants for school. Haha... a goof ball he doesn't even know how to tie his shoes.

And James. We are so happy, well very much thankful to the Heavenly Father. His 13a visa in the philippines already stamped in his passport. It means no need for us to go to Immigration to extend his stay here. Less hassle and less expense. Now we are on the process of applying the same thing for our two boys. We don't know actually what would be the process since I am not the biological Mom but well I believe GOD will help and direct us what to do. As we were applying for James visa we didn't pay a lawyer to help us through. As we bumped to some who done it already and also people around here, saying that we really need a lawyer to somewhat made it faster and less hassle. But paying a lawyer for that is somewhat a heavy financial in our pocket. We tried to actually asked what would be the possible cost when we apply it by agency and said it would be like  90,000 pesos. What!! That's crazy.. then we should practice eating only 3 times a week to save... hahaha. So then we did it by our selves. I did researched everything possibly needed. Much better to be front loaded with things than missing some required docs which is not good because the Immigration is pretty far from our home. We can't just pay a taxi and go home get the paper and back to the immigration that would be so awesome for us but the truth is IT'S NOT.

For me. Things kinda rough for me. Atleast only in my own opinion. It's really different when you wanted to accomplish something but at the moment you can't because you are facing things you need to do. I believe everyone have a dream. And I do have dreams but achieving one dream at a moment is kinda hard for me now. Not that I don't have the urge to do it so but its just that time is not enough. For now on, I will make it as a goal to be accomplish next year. I long to make this done 2 years ago but wow this year will almost end and yet I did nothing about it. I will make it my number one goal for myself, a gift for myself. I wish and hope and pray that it would be GOD's will for me... Who knows.. ONLY GOD knows. But I should not also forget my obligation to my family as a wife and as a mother. Family priority first. Oh wait... GOD first then follows the family.

Anyways an update of my family.

My Husband "I love you like no other "

I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. I will never cease of loving you till our hair turns to gray and breath turns to heavy. There is nothing in this world I could have ask more, than having you and be in your arms always. I will never ask for more leisure and luxuries in life because to me you are far more greater than those earthly things. You are given by GOD to me and so you are the greatest gems GOD had gifted and entrusted me. Thank you for coming into my life and of never giving up on me. And above all I THANK GOD for bringing and guiding you to me to share HIS majestic gift - LOVE. I love you so much hunny James Alex Nonweiler.

Life is slowly getting okay!!

GOD is really good. As we had been in so much downfall this last few days or month but then GOD never really leave us to be fail in the darkness.

My elder brother Jungie is actually a happy, funny and  good dreamer.

My family is slowly recovering from the crash shock. My elder brother was already been release in the detention jail and he promised and will do his best to change in a good ways. I do hope and pray that he will truly change. I believe he can as long as he believe that GOD will make it happen for him. I know how hard he tried to be sided with GOD but the attraction of temptation and bad influences were so high in him. Thus he always fail to come closer to GOD and see His light.

My other brother is also now moving on to his life. I wish him goodluck to his examination next week. He passed for a work and will start to work last week of this month. Congratulation and I am happy for him.

Me and my family (my own). We were in a family day celebration in the school of one of my kid, Xavier. It is family day where parents are invited in the school. There were lots of fun game and ofcourse yummy food to eat. My husband James played fun games along with the other parents and ofcourse I did too. But it was kind hard because I played volleyball. Haha... It's been awhile haven't played this game but oh well it was still fun.

In all things came into our lives this year I keep thanking GOD because HE never fail to support and carry us to be strong. He is our strength in all the times.

GOD Jesus Christ please be always our strength. And keep up in your way. Bring my family and friends with you and held us in your hands so we will never get lost or will lost again.

GOD is truly amazing

Right now we are facing difficulties in life. Not only for me but for my entire family. I truly love my family (parents, brothers and sisters) as I love my own (husband and kids).  Our lives these days is such a struggles.   So much bumps hit in our road that we never expect to come.

Firstly, it started with when my elder brother engaged in a motor accident. We weren't there when it was happened. Some said he was half drunk while driving. And I think its possible. He got hit hard in his head. He was confined in the hospital for a week and decided to go home even if he is not fully okay yet. One reason was financial incapacity.

Second, my younger brother struggled in heart matter. He and his gf were tested. His gf left him for some family reason. It was kind of a state of shock for us because his gf is already so close to the family and they already are 3 years being on. We love her and treated her as one of our family. It hurt us to see that it all ended up like this. I seen and witnessed how my brother cried to me, to my parents, to my cousins and my sisters. I know he tried to be strong and focus. We keep telling him to be and ofcourse to trust in GOD above all. Everything happens for a reason.

Third, my sister who is going to graduate this coming march will have an educational tour in Cebu which will cost couple of thousands. An unexpected happening she wasn't able to be one of the scholars in the City for the reason of failure in her one of the subject. We were obliged to pay for her tuition fee which I didn't expect would happen. So the money we saved for her tours was being used for the tuition fee plus most of it was used for the medication and hospitalization of my brother who engaged in an accident.

Fourth, my elder brother brought some problem in the family that forced us to put him in jail. It was the most frustrating night for me and for the family. He came home drunk and went wild like he didn't have control to himself. It brought anger and trigger the family that put him into the situation.

Its just the quarter of the year but its like a curse for us. It brings so much emotions, frustrations and struggles for us. But inspite of all of this we keep praying and begging GOD to be our guidance and counselor. We believe he is truly the best counsel and guide in every way. We keep hoping that in everything we been through now, it has reasons.

We keep visiting my brother in detention jail to give him courage and talked about how truly GOD is amazing. We keep strong and believe in GOD and have faith. GOD will never leave.

Another to mention while we were visiting my brother in the jail, the Police officer in Tangub asked my husband (James) complete name, age, marital status and his address in the states as well as mine (name and address). The lady police took picture with the Police officer together with me and James. I seen one police outside riding in the police car saying to take James name and address. He said that its for security reason. Since he is a foreigner and living in the City so they are like liable. I thank GOD for this atleast its feels more safer. But oh well nothing is more safe in GOD's hand anyway.

In the positive side, at the night  before the flight for the tours of my sister, her instructor called and asked about her if she is coming or not. Its been set and we had been talked already that she will not join the tour because we have nothing to let her go with. And its okay for her that she wont be able to graduate this year. So her instructor said that he will pay for my sister in the tour provided that I will pay it next month which is okay for me because in that maybe I will have my salary. GOD is truly GOOD. Her instructor even told me to just pay it half at a time then the other half on the next so that it wont be too much for me.

Another blessing received James 13a visa application is approved today. We never expect it because someone told us that it will get approved prolly 3 to 6 months. And oh yeah its just 2 months from the date we applied for it and wow... what a surprise from GOD JESUS we received.

I thank GOD for everything. For all good and bad. Thank you Lord for having a family that rely on you and for having a husband who is very supportive and very understanding. Kind hearted who never give up on us. Who is always there to comfort and keep telling us the bright side in GODs hands. Thank you very much my LORD JESUS CHRIST. Please continue to guide us and bring us to YOUR WILL!!

Xavier singing Lupang Hinirang

Xavier is now in school. It is not easy for him because he doesn't know visayan much and much more in tagalog. We speak at home either visayan or english. He understand some of the visayan.

Learning the Philippine National Anthem is so hard for him. Aside from he doesn't know what it all means; the filipino accent is hard for him but he is learning though.

My James My husband's 33rd birthday!!

Birthday banana cake for my Love Husband!!

Its my husband's 33rd birthday. And it's his second birthday here in the Philippines. He is now adjusting to the surroundings and weather.

James with his Banana cake!!

Ready to blow the candle.....

My family is loving him so much and is used to be with him and the boys. James sometimes miss some of his life back home in the states but me along with my family always here for him. He is loving every moments being with the family and I am so thankful.

Birthday Greetings from sis!!

My sister made him a specialize card just simple but it worth more than a card in the mall. We prepared him just a simple birthday celebration; thanking GOD for a year full of blessings.

Prayer before meals!!!!

Food was being attack.....lol!!

Enjoying.......

Everybody is busy.....

The day was a blessings from GOD.

Xylons 3rd birthday and Papa Boy 53rd birthday

Happy Birthday to my Sweet Baby Xylon. He is 3 now. My baby is "baby no more" because according to him he is now a boy like Kuya Xavier. We love you so much baby ko. we are so happy to have, a sweet child, very helpful and a very loving one. hugs and kisses to you from Mommy and Daddy. Happy Birthday to Papa Boy too. Thank you for being a father to us. Thank you for the hardwork and patience. Thank you for the worries and love. Thank you for being you. We hardly express things to you but know that we love you and we are proud of having a father like you.

Getting stronger!!

Time fly so fast. It's almost one year James and the boys are here in the Philippines and almost half a year we are married. Everyone in the family is seem well adjust. We are getting used of being around, things we learned everyday with everybody. Although there are some times that things seems harder to handle but as what we (James and I) keep telling each other to surrender and throw it all to GOD first hand, things are working well which I believe it is GOD's will.    

Life without problems are nothing as they said. Life is like a rainbow I believe. Different colors, different problems. When our life seems okay and we try to maintain things as it is, then there came worse scenario that could distract us. What frustrates me is that some people around cannot stand us being happy. They seem jealous on how we get through things.

 One of the biggest factor I hate most is those ones who tell me whats the right thing or the best thing for me. People who are happy to pick or point our things I should do. Actually, they don't know exactly what I felt about it. They said they care about me. YES, it's true. But I define it pakialamera, chismosa, tirang, gossips.

What's very annoying to me is when they said I'm taking care of children not my own blood, that I should have had my own. That it's different to have one. That they are not my children. Don't you have heart people? What kind of people are you? So evil? Forgive my words but I'm fed up of things like this. Yes they don't came from my own flesh but I love them to death like my own. Don't you understand that people? I'm sorry, I just wanna voice this out.

So much for that. It only gives me a high blood pressure. Some people are just jealous seeing me happy. That they don't have what I have. But overall, I am thankful to GOD for everything. The happiness I feel today is not like yesterday. And everyday is different.

I'm sorry for my harsh words. But I love James and I love our boys. I married James and I accept everything about him. So people get over it, coz if you can't then you will live your life full of jealousy.

Happy Fathers Day!!

Daddy Larry. I've never meet you in person but I can tell that you are a very good example of a good Dad. You showed what GOD's greatest gift to all your children and that is LOVE. You love your children unconditionally the way GOD wants a father to be. You remain strong for all of them and I so much admire you for being consistent of showing LOVE to them and now for me as well :). I am happy to have you as my father. I love you.

Papa Boy. Thank you for all the things you did for us. For doing hard work just to raise us to be fearful of GOD. For the worries you showed for all of us. Thank you for being a father, a friend to joke around. Thank you for being supportive. We love you.

Daddy James. Your life had been in so much downfall as I say. But you never give up even if it was so hard for you. Your life lost track but you fight to live for our boys. You seek for GOD and you found HIM. Thank you for being strong and being a child of GOD. I love you so much and I will always love you.

Without you Daddies, we'll never be here and experience the glory of GOD through his creature.

Happy Birthday Mama Gloria!!

Happy Birthday to my Mama!! Thank you for being such a good Mom to us. Thank you for the love and care!! We love you so much Ma!! Happy, Happy Birthday!!

I want you to know that I love you and I am so proud of having a Mom like you. You love us unconditionally. I know being the light of the family, you wanted to be strong and work hard so you can provide things for us, and I appreciate it so much. From the time you sent us to school until now you are still consistent to look after us. Even if we can stand by ourselves, you are still making sure that we really can make it. Thank you so much for being like that.

I love you and We love you!! I am proud to be your daughter.....

Eugielene Tulin Nonweiler

How to Pray!!

Pray with a humble heart, don't be like an authority. Only Jesus is in Authority. Most of the times we prayed like we want Jesus to answer it right away. GOD may or may not answer all our prayers and HE has reasons behind. If He answered or rejected our prayer, He has the reason and we don't know it. GOD knows our heart desire even we haven't told HIM. Pray heartily and humbly. Remember GOD speaks in heart not in mind.

The effect of Strawberry Sundae Float

We were in the Jollibee (Xylon pronounce it as Jollibeans.. hehe) WE ordered sundae float. Suddenly...

Xylon : Mommy, I think I'm getting sick! (after eating half of his sundae)
Mommy : Why?
Xylon : Because I am cold!!
Mommy : Hehe

Part of it was also because we were behind the air conditioner. I was feeling chilled too after eating all my float.

My Family (I love them SOOO!!)

Loving my life now as a mother and a wife!! Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful Family!! The Thankfulness and gratitude I have for you can never be express into words. Thank you BIG BUNCH!!

How to save your heart?

SHOULD

• never expect
• never demand
• never assume

KNOW

• your limits
• where you stand
• your role

DON'T

• get affected
• get jealous
• get paranoid

JUST

• go with the flow
• pray fervently
• and stay happy

Meeting Mr. Eddie Mabulay (Xylon's Biological Grandfather)

The time is set for us to meet Xylon's Grandpa. My heart was pumping so fast because I feel shy and I don’t know what to say whenever we will meet.

I got the contact number of Maria’s Father from her sister Mai-Mai in Cebu few days ago. From that time, I told James I already have contact number of Xylon’s Grandfather in Ozamiz. But we were thinking of when is the best time to meet.

A day before the meeting, I messaged Sir Eddie ( Maria's Father) that we would like to meet him up in a Jollibee in Ozamiz. His reply was "Who is this?". Gosh, I can't explain my reaction, my heart was beating so fast, thinking what should I say or how would I introduce myself. I pretty sure I mentioned my name in my first text to him, hehe... maybe He just can't figure it out who's messaging him :)... So instead I messaged Mai-Mai (Maria's Sister) that we wanted to meet her father in the following day. Actually I don't know what to message back to Sir Eddie because I felt deaf, my eardrum sunk, all I can hear is the BLAG…A..DAG… in my chest (Kulbaan kaayo ko). So Mai-Mai called her Father and told him about me and James and the boys wanting to meet him. And yeah we were set to meet up. Meet in Ozamiz, the old Jollibee Building, Time around 10 o’clock in the morning.

In the following day, Xavier walked up so early, and he told me “Mommy we need to wake up early because we will go to Ozamiz, right?” I already told him a night before, that we need to wake up early to get ready to go to Ozamiz because we will be meeting his Grandpa. He was excited and so Xylon as well. So I got up and prepared things. Both boys were excited to take a bath although it was early for them where they are used to take a bath around 10 in the morning.

Things were all done. We were walking in the road waiting for a bus to ride, I told Xylon “Baby we will be seeing your Grandpa today.” Xylon said “Grandpa…” Sounds like a question. I said “Yes, Grandpa….(thinking of the name but I don’t know).  I looked at James and asked what’s the name of Maria’s father, he said Mabulay… he don’t know the real name. So I told Xylon “Grandpa Mabulay”.

No bus came by so we took the motorcab going to Tangub town and went to the Commuter (little bus that bring passenger from Tangub to Ozamiz vice-versa). Finally we’re in Ozamiz, we took motorcab again going to Jollibee.

At Jollibee. We ordered burger steak for me, chicken nuggets for James, fried chicken for my brother and pancake with hotdog for the boys. I was thinking of what to order for Sir Eddie, coz I’m not sure if he will eat chicken since I learned from Mai-Mai that he just had a mild stroke. So best to wait for him.

I messaged Sir Eddie that we were already in Jollibee but he never replied. So, I messaged Mai-Mai again telling her that we’re already in Jollibee. We never noticed the time, we are so early, it’s just 9:30 and what Sir Eddie knows is 10. So excited maybe. Mai-Mai messaged that she called her Father but he cannot be contacted maybe the battery was dead. So, I messaged her that we will just wait. And we ate.

And so my phone beeps and its Sir Eddie texted that he is ready and will only wait for our text. I was thinking maybe he didn’t received my text earlier, so I texted him back telling him that we were already in the Jollibee. And he replied that he is on his way now.  WOW…. Again, my feeling was something I can’t explain. My heart was BLAG, BLAG, BLAG…..  I messaged Mai-Mai, that her Father is on his way now, but I don’t know how he look like. Mai-Mai messaged me to text her Father to be the one who will just come close to us since we will be easy to recognize, we had foreigner.

5 minutes passed by, I kept looking at the door who’s coming in and I know James was too because he really was facing the door. I looked beyond the glass hoping to see someone who uses a stick (sungkod) to walk because it’s what Mai-Mai told me aside from gwapohon (good-looking) and skinny. And I happened to see a man walking with stick but far beyond with the description because he was too chubby and dark. 3 minutes passed and yet nothing. So we ordered French fries to eat while waiting and somewhat killing the tense I felt (he he). Then I went to the bathroom.

When I got out in the bathroom I saw James shaking hands with a man in yellow shirt, and yeah it was Sir Eddie Mabulay (Maria Karla’s Father). He saw Xavier and hug him and saw Xylon and hug him as well. I went straight opposite to the table he sat in. Xylon easily go with him, He called him Grandpa and always wants to be noticed. And the feeling, the shyness, the awkwardness I felt was slowly gone. He is so nice, lively and jolly. Maria got this personality, I think. He showed the pictures of Maria he brought to the boys, and both boys are busy looking at it. I took pictures of them (Grandpa and Grandson).

So we went to the Gaisano Mall the new building where there’s a place for kids fun to play. Xylon wants his Grandpa to carry him. He kept giving Grandpa a fries. A very sweet little boy. I took picture. We went to the second floor, in the kids corner. I let James and Sir Eddie talked. I now felt little comfortable.

For the lunch. It had been agreed that we will eat our lunch in Sir Eddie’s home in Bagakay, Ozamiz. So we bought puso (cooked rice wrapped in a coconut leaves) and litson manok (roasted chicken) at Pedro’s. And we went in there home. I like the place, it’s almost the same as our place. Lots of trees, fresh air and no lots of noise of big buses.

We are in the house. And wow, the boys feels really at home. They went inside and played with the boys (Sir Eddie’s kids). I met his wife and I helped her prepare the lunch. And again I felt awkward little since it’s a new person but it went away easily. She was nice and natural making me feel at ease. She laughs when Xavier and Xylon starting to jabber jaw (blah blah blah). Her kids where shy and went to go bath.

Lunch was ready. We ate. Grandpa Eddie joke to Xavier

Grandpa : Do you want to go swimming?

Xavier (with a big eyes) : Where?

Grandpa : Over there, with the Carabao.

Xavier : Is it Dirty?

Grandpa : No, with leeches and alligators.

Xavier : Are they friendly?

Grandpa : Yes.

Xavier : You gotta show me after we eat…

All smiled with this little boy. And we ate lunch…

Some relatives of Xylon went there ( lolas) I don’t know the name. I took pictures of the boys and Grandpa. I saw a big picture of Maria, she was so pretty. I took picture of it as well. Then chit-chat, the boys feeding the chicken. Played toys. Xylon was full packed with toys in his packet. He brought on our way home some of the little cars that his uncles had or maybe all.

Then time to go home. Sir Eddie came with us in our place in Tangub so he will know where we live. We got a free ride from Bagakay to Tangub. It happened to be one of the bus of the city I worked with was on his way going to Tangub. Xylon had a little nap while in the bus. Then dropped in City and ride a motorcab going in our place.

In our home, I introduced Sir Eddie to my Papa and Mama. They talked. And it happened to be that my papa knows some of Sir Eddie’s relatives. It was a fun talked because Sir Eddie is kinda a joker hahaha… He said jokes to James, about drinking moderately and three cases of beer is okay and enough… hehehe And he also suggested my papa to let James drink a coconut wine… hehehe (Daghang bahal sa amo hapit na mahimo ug suka). Sir Eddie talked about when he was assigned in the Tangub before, he being a priest/pastor, being a soldier… They talked a lot, I just listened to them.. He mentioned Karla to my papa and mama but my parents used of the name Maria. They all looked at Xylon and oh yeah, Xylon as if he knows that he was being talked starting to jabber jaw again.

And time for Sir Eddie to go home because he and his wife will go get some grocery. Xavier gave him hugs and kisses. And Xylon come with us in town. So we went in Tangub town riding a motor bike, he come with us walked around in the Vegetable market. He carried Xylon (Piggy back ride).

The day turned out so well. It was a very touching event not only for me to see them see each other but for Maria’s family as well, coz I know they really super miss her so much. The way they hug Xylon, the feeling I seen in their faces, the smiles, everything. It wrenches my heart.

Overall the day was a blessing from GOD.

GOD bless us everyone!!

Eugielene

Jesus is Risen!!

God our Father, by raising Christ your Son you conquered the power of death and opened for us the way to eternal life. Let our celebration today raise us up and renew our lives by the Spirit that is within us. Grant this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Christ is Risen indeed from the dead. Amen.

Happy Birthday to my Father in Law, Papa Larry Strand

It's still the 29th of March in the US today but it's already the 30th here in the Philippines and it's my Papa Larry's birthday, my father-in-Law's Birthday. I so hope to spend more on your birthdays together in time. The boys are missing you so and I know as well as James. We want you to know that we love you so much. Hoping for the day to come that you will be able to come and visit us here. That would be so awesome. Have a wonderful blessed Happy Birthday to you Papa.

Happy Birthday to a Sweet Daddy, Loving Grandpa Larry Strand. We wish you more years to come and more fruitful days. More blessings from GOD above. We love you bunches.

The Battle (Darkness vs Light)

Life on earth is always a battle between good versus evil. It's up to you which one you choose. Whether you choose to walk in the darkness and experience the horror in life. Or in the road where you can see light in the end. GOD give you free will to choose. If you choose the wrong path then you suffer the consequences. Whichever you choose is always GOD's will. You might be put in the wrong choice but it teaches you lesson and make you a better man. Remember you wouldn't be what you are right now without that choice you made in your life.

Some are fortunate enough to experience good things without so much sufferings and pain. Some are lucky to win the battle in life facing the consequences. And so sad to say, but some didn't survive the power of evil.

GOD wants us to be strong and to not be afraid. HE is always with us both good times and in bad. HE wants us to win the race believing that HE is with us. HE wants to see us reach the finishing line. HE wants us to experience HIS glory.

Remember there is always LIGHT after the STORM!!

GOD bless us all everyone!!
Eugielene

Strikes...

I had been in a long road of knowing GOD's place in my life. No matter how I keep telling myself that GOD will always be there for me. But there were times when problem strikes and that made me wish to die there and then. I know problems are constant in life. And some said GOD will never give you a problem which you can't handle. I believe that, but why there are those who end up their lives because of it? Maybe they were being defeated by the devil of guns or knives that pushes them to do so for the reason to scape. I understand this people because I had been in the same situation as well. It is so hard to fight against evil thought, a thought that is sometimes very convincing.


The road that I walk in was never been easy for me and I know still will never be easy. I am being enfold by good and bad things. It is so hurting to see someone you love struggles a lot because of emptiness. I know I once wished to give them little comfort of life but sometimes made me think want to give up. Because I have a heart of being Merciful as they call, can't stand watching someone in pain and struggle. Do you think, I like this feeling? I so wish I don't feel this way, and in that way, I couldn't feel anything, you know like a rock. But can't change it, I am this and will always be like this. Sometimes I wish to disappear.

Oh well, as I think it back, Problem is equal to life because life without problem is nothing. Who are those people who have life without problem? Abnormal or Normal? So I will continue to deal with this everyday reality thing. Hoping that GOD will keep holding on me. Despite of times I'm feeling nothing and left alone looking for someone to blame (ends up questioning HIM).

Be strong "ME".

Cure of my boredom!!

I was in the office and I got bored. My boss was not around, she was in Manila and will be staying for a week. So instead of sitting in my chair making my butt sore and hot, I made this photo of my babies.


This is Xavier Dean (Napitupulu) Nonweiler. I gather all Xavier pictures by year. It took me like almost an hour to look for pictures. Although I am not so certain of the date of the picture so instead I just put the Month and Year, its based on the picture being posted and taken. Xavier being a baby got this chubby face but he is becoming good-looking as he grows. He could be a heart breaker.


This is Xylon Keith (Mabulay) Nonweiler. Just like what I did to the first one, I gathered pictures of him and took me just a half hour since I almost have had his old pics. He is a kind of a chubby baby too and smart kiddo. He has a big smile, that always shows the side chubby chick when he do. He got a chinese blood and it shows to his eyes. He sure be a handsome man in time.

I am so proud to have them. They really are making my day good. Made me laugh, touch my heart and made me dance. I am happy I am their Mommy!!

Saving a Marriage (A Must Read Story)

This is a story I just read and I found it very touching. This is not about me, I just read it somewhere in the facebook and I think I should post it here so anyone can read this will be inspire and will be touch.


“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

... Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

(Note: I use pictures to make the story interactive. Taken in the internet. GOD Bless Everyone)

Valentines Day!!

Valentines Day is not only today but always be everyday. Everyday is a love day. Happy Valentines Day to my sweet and wonderful husband James Alex Nonweiler. Know that we love you so much.

From : Eugielene , Xavier and Xylon

Our Wedding Slide

James Alex Nonweiler and Eugielene Ladaga Tulin Wedding Slides

Watching this video really wanna makes me cry out loud. Thinking of all the waiting and hardship we been through atleast now we are together and starting life in a positive way.

Two Hearts Become One!!

From two different world, one traveled in a long way to reach one heart. To become a family, Daddy, Mommy and babies. And now united with LOVE given by GOD.

After so long of waiting finally time is here and the moment come, two become one. Two hearts being united in both body and soul with the grace of GOD Jesus Christ. We are one family with One GOD who keep us still inspite of all the struggles we had been. True GOD Jesus Christ. Keep us One, I wanna grow old with the man you choose for me, make me patient and understanding of my husband and a loving mother to my wonderful kids.