True Love Means To Me!!

1. I always miss his smell, even if it stinks still its like the best perfume to smell before I finally falling asleep.
2. Even if he did things that I really hate a hundred percent many times but then I keep forgiving him many times.
3. Even if he acts goofy or disturbing, let's say a discouraging act, a minus point but still for me it seems so funny and cute to see.
4. In some moments I just look at him and think how much I love him but then make sure he won't catch me looking at him.
5. Hearing him snore at night but it sure like a background music to me to fall asleep.
6. Always makes me impatient of time to get off work and to be home because I know he is there.
7. There are some times I found myself thinking having a gray hair while pushing him from the wheel chair.
8. Give me a smile thinking ahead of time (Growing Old)

I sure never been in this feeling before. Yes, I had love before but then this time is different. Before I always had that feeling of being scared, not secure and always have the second thought, you know the "WHAT IF" thing. But wow, now is totally different, I feel safe and secured. And I am just being so enlove.

To Someone I love (Originally dated July 07, 2010)

I thank GOD so much for blessing me a wonderful man in my life. A precious family I will always love to live with. No word can really explain how much I love you with all my heart.


The day I meet u is the day I am so blessed. We just started and talk as friends never expecting more from each other. We were just enjoying sharing about life, struggles and faith. But we never knew that it was the beginning of a never ending love we have for each other. Its so amazing how GOD works on us.

Though there were times I fight against it, thinking that this is not GOD's plan. We are here to only comfort each other and nothing more. I was thinking YOU are only for GOD and not for me. But after sometimes my feelings for you grows more and more to the point I dont know if its love or not. Because I was enjoying your company. I even pray to GOD " Lord, if this is not right, please, stop me from falling enlove with him. If he is for u alone, that u wanna use to be your instrument, please don't let me be one of his temptation to not do what u want him to do" the prayer to be exactly I had said.

But the more I pray to stop falling and trying to pull myself away, the more the force is pushing me in to you. Until such time, I tell GOD, "Lord, I dont know, im trying to stop but it never stop, now I tell YOU, Im inlove. I love him" But still I was kinda scared. Scared coz this might be my choice but not GODs choice.

I have been hurt before because maybe I was so careless or I didn't ask GOD on it. I was seem rush on things and sometimes becomes aggressive. But after falling in to the same mistake, I give up, and even ask GOD "why?" I have been always good for all my life, knowing what is good or bad but still why?"... I was thinking to try different things from what I'm used to... I wanna go wild, and tell the world that I'm changing. But GOD did not want me to. He doesn't want me to experience being lost.

Then I meet YOU (James Nonweiler). Your life touches my heart. I was thinking, my struggles was just little compared to you to go wild and to do what I was trying to do. I feel blessed for u coming into my life, coz it made me see more reasons to value life. To believe in the thing called LOVE again. And most of all, to see how amazing it is to stay stick to GOD.
Your faith in GOD is so amazing. You help me bring my faith to GOD in the next level. I am thankful to you for being strong for us.


.......... to be continue........