True Love Means To Me!!

1. I always miss his smell, even if it stinks still its like the best perfume to smell before I finally falling asleep.
2. Even if he did things that I really hate a hundred percent many times but then I keep forgiving him many times.
3. Even if he acts goofy or disturbing, let's say a discouraging act, a minus point but still for me it seems so funny and cute to see.
4. In some moments I just look at him and think how much I love him but then make sure he won't catch me looking at him.
5. Hearing him snore at night but it sure like a background music to me to fall asleep.
6. Always makes me impatient of time to get off work and to be home because I know he is there.
7. There are some times I found myself thinking having a gray hair while pushing him from the wheel chair.
8. Give me a smile thinking ahead of time (Growing Old)

I sure never been in this feeling before. Yes, I had love before but then this time is different. Before I always had that feeling of being scared, not secure and always have the second thought, you know the "WHAT IF" thing. But wow, now is totally different, I feel safe and secured. And I am just being so enlove.

To Someone I love (Originally dated July 07, 2010)

I thank GOD so much for blessing me a wonderful man in my life. A precious family I will always love to live with. No word can really explain how much I love you with all my heart.


The day I meet u is the day I am so blessed. We just started and talk as friends never expecting more from each other. We were just enjoying sharing about life, struggles and faith. But we never knew that it was the beginning of a never ending love we have for each other. Its so amazing how GOD works on us.

Though there were times I fight against it, thinking that this is not GOD's plan. We are here to only comfort each other and nothing more. I was thinking YOU are only for GOD and not for me. But after sometimes my feelings for you grows more and more to the point I dont know if its love or not. Because I was enjoying your company. I even pray to GOD " Lord, if this is not right, please, stop me from falling enlove with him. If he is for u alone, that u wanna use to be your instrument, please don't let me be one of his temptation to not do what u want him to do" the prayer to be exactly I had said.

But the more I pray to stop falling and trying to pull myself away, the more the force is pushing me in to you. Until such time, I tell GOD, "Lord, I dont know, im trying to stop but it never stop, now I tell YOU, Im inlove. I love him" But still I was kinda scared. Scared coz this might be my choice but not GODs choice.

I have been hurt before because maybe I was so careless or I didn't ask GOD on it. I was seem rush on things and sometimes becomes aggressive. But after falling in to the same mistake, I give up, and even ask GOD "why?" I have been always good for all my life, knowing what is good or bad but still why?"... I was thinking to try different things from what I'm used to... I wanna go wild, and tell the world that I'm changing. But GOD did not want me to. He doesn't want me to experience being lost.

Then I meet YOU (James Nonweiler). Your life touches my heart. I was thinking, my struggles was just little compared to you to go wild and to do what I was trying to do. I feel blessed for u coming into my life, coz it made me see more reasons to value life. To believe in the thing called LOVE again. And most of all, to see how amazing it is to stay stick to GOD.
Your faith in GOD is so amazing. You help me bring my faith to GOD in the next level. I am thankful to you for being strong for us.


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So true.....

Why do misplace things appear when not needed?
And unseen when you want it the most?
Simply because, you were not aware of their value unless you are about to make use of them.
So take care of the people you love, not only because you need them but because they are important in your life.

Our Journey (James and Eugielene)

First Chapter
03/00/2010 - We met online at Filipina Heart and chatting
03/00/2010 - We started sending email and chatting on yahoo
04/22/2010 - When love sttrikes and We became lovers
04/00/2010 - James proposed me online
06/13/2010 - James booked a flight to Philippines
08/16/2010 - I booked a flight for Manila (to meet James) via Cebu Pacific
08/25/2010 - James arrival (5:55 AM) 1st visit Philippines NAIA Manila (he waited for my plane to arrive)
08/25/2010 - James Proposed at Century Park Hotel (Night)
08/25/2010 - I received my engagement ring
08/26/2010 - Our flight going to Ozamiz Airport
08/26/2010 - Arrived past 1:00 PM
08/26/2010 - James finally in my homeland Tangub City
08/26/2010 - He met my family and introduced him to my co-officemate
09/04/2010 - We flew to Manila
09/04/2010 - Arrived past 12:00 noon (stayed at Century Park Hotel)
09/05/2010 - My flight to Ozamiz Airport (back home, arrived: around 7:00 AM) via Cebu Pacific
09/05/2010 - James and I went to the Airport so early in the Morning (4:00 AM)
09/05/2010 - James departure going back to US (depart time: 7:55 PM)
09/06/2010 - James arrived to the US.

Second Chapter
K-1 Journey (I-129F)
09/10/2010 - Filing date of I-129 F
09/22/2010 - NOA 1
02/22/2011 - Case being adjudicated
02/28/2011 - RFE, Waiver to file 2nd K-1 petition
03/04/2011 - RFE reply sent
03/08/2011 - RFE received and being reviewed at USCIS
03/17/2011 - NOA2 (I-129F approved)
03/23/2011 - NOA2 hard copy received
03/29/2011 - NVC received our Case
04/04/2011 - NVC letter received and case forwarded to US embassy Manila
04/08/2011 - US Embassy Manila received our case (Consulate)
04/15/2011 - Paid VISA at BPI
04/16/2011 - Received Eligibility Letter from US Embassy Manila dated April 8, 2011
04/25/2011 - 1st day of Medical
04/26/2011 - 2nd day of Medical (I PASSED!! Thank you Lord!!)
05/13/2011 - Interview (221g - Case under Administrative Processing "AP")
08/12/2011 - Received an email from the embassy "Case is pending review by a consular officer"

Third Chapter
08/26/2011 - James 2nd visit together with the little boys (Xavier and Xylon). Exactly 1 year from his first visit.
09/03/2011 - We went to Ozamiz to have some grocery for food, since the boys are adjusting with the food here in the philippines.
09/07/2011 - I emailed the embassy to ask if we can get second interview.
09/08/2011 - Embassy replied and tell us that they gonna refer the request in the processing team unit.
10/07/2011 -  I called the embassy and asked about the status of our visa. The agent asked about my medical date, it was April, then she told me she gonna refer the inquiry to the CO since my medical will expire this Month. She said I should expect a call or email next week.

Hard time!!

Not everyday is a guarantee that you will always be happy and at ease. Even if you already have the things you wish to have to make you wonderfully happy. There are some instances that really can make you sad or upset. BAD times will always find its ways to come out even if you are in GOOD times.

Life is really so difficult to understand. Once you kinda have a picture to what its gonna happen, but then something come out that makes you think, is it part of it? I believe to what most says "Everything Happens for a Reason". And I will be in the search to WHAT is the reason and WHY....

I know my life ahead will be still cloudy-rocky. But I do hope that GOD will keep ahold of me. I am not strong as what most expect I am.

Together as a family!!

Thousand words to say (Pictures)

  

Xylon waiting for food.



True love





Bleeehhh.... who has the longest tongue!!


 

 


Xylon always love to wear my shoes or sandals. Ta-ga-tak-ta-ga-tak........

 





Xavier fell asleep while watching cartoons and Xylon making cute action to play with uncle Boboy.

   



Xavier and Xylon



My diaper TIME.



Happiness

Happiness means alot when you are around with people you dearly love. Its been like a year I've been away with someone I love. And right now I'm so thankful that GOD really make a way.
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Rule of a Gentlemen

Rule # 47 : "LOVE" does not stand for legs open very easily.

I feel like known by my poems and writings!! :)

I was in a certain store this afternoon before I went home....

Store owner : I think I seen you. You work in the City Hall, right?
Me : Yes
Store owner : What is your name?
Me : Eugielene Tulin Ma'am.

Out of the blue a highschool girl came in the door....

Girl : Eugielene Tulin, I heard your name, the author, a writer...
Me : Huh? (wondering)
Girl : I read the poems you wrote way back, you wrote poems right?
Me : Yes. I did have some poems published in school when I was in college.
Girl : Oh yeah, that's it. My teacher asked me whos the author of the poem I read I said Eugielene Tulin. And my teacher said you were her student.
Me : Who is the teacher?
Girl : Herlyn Sinarillos
Me : Yeah (smiling)

I went home with a feeling like Im alittle famous. Ha ha... I never expected my writing will make my name known.. but not my face haha.... Atleast I can tell, I will be remembered when I'm gone through my writings and poems..

Totally Inlove!!

Things for me this past few months seemed cloudy. But oh well, it didn't stop my world. I still keep moving and facing life's challenges. I know there would be some time I feel like push down and disappointed but the good news is the fact that GOD is there I still am standing still.

GOD is so good. I realized that even at times I feel like GOD is not there but HE was there for me silently working for my favor. GOD knows the best.

Am really thankful GOD gave me this life. A life where I experience things I never experience before. Life with GOD is definitely a good life with a good direction. But cannot change the fact that sometimes Life with GOD is somehow rocky too. But its up on you to how you gonna face those times when the rock hit you.

Another thing that makes me happy and makes me inspired for living everyday. A man that truly loving me and giving me strength to face everyday life. James Nonweiler , I love you and GOD knows How much I love you. I'm so looking forward for the day we will be finally together and be a family.

Thank you for being an instrument send by GOD in my way. Thank you for being my strength, my inspiration. I love you and am still so enlove with you.

Our love will be more stronger than before. I love you so much Hunny and hugs and kisses for you and for our little angels.

A Letter from Someone who Loves you unconditionally

Dear My Child,


I believe in you. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have made you into such an amazing and wonderful person. I believe in you so much, I planted dreams in your heart. Dreams that will bless you and bless the world. Dreams that will make you grow in love and will mature your soul. Yes, I will use you to share My light and love to many.
So believe in yourself. Even when you fail. Never give up yourself. Failure is an important part of your success. Look around and you’ll discover that the most successful people are those who have failed the most. Trust in Me. I trust in you.

Know the difference between paths and purpose. Even if your chosen path fails, never give up on your sacred purpose. When you write your dreams, include the details that you desire. Your imagination will inspire you. But don’t be attached to the details. Surrender to my surprises and open yourself to My abundance. For I have the best blessings and the perfect miracles for you, far better that what you can think of or imagine.

Nourish your soul in My love and My Word. Nourish your soul with other like-minded Dreamers who have fire in their hearts.

Now go, My child, and share My love and light to all those around you.
Always remember that I believe in you. I love you.

Cheering you on,
God

Me versus GOD

Me......>>>


Sometimes, GOD seems to be quiet...
HE seems to be absent and never listens...
I call HIM but never answers...
I ask HIM for help but HE never rescues....
I ask myself, why GOD?
In my deepest trouble YOU were not with ME?
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GOD......>>>

I never left you. I just want to watch you fighting, using MY words that are stored in your Heart and Mind as Your weapon...
I'll always be with you....
Just be with ME always......

Happy Father's Day!!




We are so blessed to have you in our life!! We want you to  know that YOU are the best DADDY in the world. We LOVE YOU SO MUCH and Happy, Happy Father's Day!!

All about GOD and Faith

This past few days, life seems so hard for me. I have been struggling with my faith. I know I seen GOD in the first place in my life, but there were times that seeing GOD is so hard especially at times you think you really need him but then you couldn't feel him. I even told myself why is it like this, at times that I most need HIM he seems so silent. I almost feel its unfair.


But after some times, I always talked to someone, who somehow help me see GOD deeply. Although there were times I thought I feel like too much for him. I used to tell him about GOD's time, and wow, now I'm losing my word. He's the one who's telling me my line, to wait for GOD's time, everything has its own time. God's time is the perfect time. I know I should be patient and not losing my faith. I should wait for the perfect timing which is GOD's time.

Well, after struggling my faith in GOD, I gave time to meditate and somehow feel deeply in my heart and was searching wheres my faith. I came up reading about faith and its enemy.

Enemies of Faith

1) Ignorance. Somtimes faith is nothing when you are not aware, or is lack of knowledge about it. Much unbelief rises out of the fact that people just don't know what the Bible says. The cure of this is study, meditation and consideration of the word.

2) Unbelief. This is the sinful choice to not believe God. It is usually motivated by pride, rebellion and ignorance. The cure for this is therefore to humble oneself, change one's mind and choose to believe.

3) Fear. Negative fear is a negative emotion based on the real expectation of bad things to come. It is rooted in anxiety and a lack of trust in God's fatherly protection and love. Perfect love casts out fear. (1Jn 4:18). God is perfect love. Therefore by seeking God, His presence and the fullness of His Spirit we will be set free from fear. When we are conscious of God's power it is very easy to be courageous and bold. We expect success when we are consciously full of God and know that we are doing what He is telling us to do. To overcome fear we must look to God and not to natural considerations which could cause our failure if God were not with us.

4) Doubt. Doubt is an enemy to faith because it speaks with a voice that challenges the truth or the reliability of what we should be believing. To overcome doubt we must fill ourselves with the Word of God, meditating deeply and repetitively on it. Doubt is the evidence of an unconsecrated heart and mind. It is the evidence of lack of devotion to God's Word. Doubt, like fear, torments. We must forgive others and give our whole hearts to God. We must stop listening to the voice of demons or the voice of our own carnal mind trained from early days to resist God. This is a decision. It helps to hear the testimonies of others to overcome doubt. However, doubt will never be fully overcome until we treat the Bible as God's voice TO US.

5) Discouragement. Sometimes we feel discouraged because of physical or emotional weakness or tiredness. We may be disappointed by the behaviour of other people. We may be discouraged by the persecution of others, even of our families. Perhaps we have waited for what may or may not be God's promise to us, and we grow impatient. Many people at some time in their life become disappointed with God. Satan uses discouragement to weaken and if possible destroy our faith. To overcome discouragement we must make a decision to be strong (Hebrews 12:12; Ephesians 6:10) in the Lord. We must want to be strong and stop making excuses for our weakness and failure. We must consider God's faithfulness to us in the past, even through difficulties (Hebrews 10:32-34). We must rededicate ourselves to God's Word, to thankfulness, to prayer and to the voice of the Spirit.

It somehow help me see my faith. Because honestly, I'm almost losing it, I was just needing reinforcement. I know I should build a solid foundation of my personal relationship to GOD. And should be done by PRAYER and OBEDIENCE. I must allow myself to not be weakend with evil thoughts, and somehow satan almost win over.

I hope GOD will keep on holding me. Coz I am sometimes weak.

In Jesus Name!!

LORD, your will be done!!

Lord GOD, I believe in your power!
GOD I need your guidance and I need you this days. I know, sometimes I feel weak but please help me to become strong. I have so many things in my mind that makes me scared but please I need your strength. Im trying to be strong and fight against this negativity in my mind but sometimes bad thoughts strikes and making it more worse. I know you thought me of being possitive and show me the hope. But Lord Honestly, in my heart many many things come up that makes me think I can do it then there goes I can't do it then changes I can do it: Changeable mind. Lord I hope this things will be over. I dont wanna live everyday always feeling scared...kinda tiring..

LORD, I NEED YOU. I dont need any other but YOU.

Love

Love is a gentle caring
a quiet concern
deeply hidden in the heart.

A presence always felt
everyday, every minute, every hour.
Love is a gentle embrace
between body and soul.

A quiet touch of the hand
a soft hug by warm arms
a caress of two souls.

Love is a great passion
between hungry hearts.
The intimate exchange
between mind, body and soul.

Love is always caring
always growing
always being there.

Love is a wonderful gift
shared by two blessed souls
experiencing Heaven on Earth.