The Cry!

Lord what you really want me to do? I do everything that I think you like me to be. What have I done to punish me. Until when shall I suffer, until when shall I see the problems of others. For all the good things I have done, I only have one favor I ask from you. Just peace of mind but yet you do not hear. What should I do? I am tired of keeping myself strong, fighting for good but yet you continue to lead me in a rocky road. Is this what you want to see from me? Is this the life you want me to have? I asked you what else should I do. You didn't speak? Do you want me to give up everything I have, leave my family, leave my work and all? Is that would be enough to end my sufferings? I always have the soft heart to listen to others and it hurts me that sometimes I really feel the urge to help but i have nothing to give. Why make me feel like this? I rather die than to continue to see sufferings and feel the burdens the earth bring. I long for change and yet changes weren't for good. I am tired striving for change, and now I don't knowif I can make it happen. A CHANGE FOR GOOD! I am only a small person on earth but I have big dreams for it. Lord, just tell me what you want me to do? I am tired of this life I have now. Until when shall I wait for the light to come my way? Until when shall you lend your ears and make your eyes see me in such agony? Forgive me, for there is no one I can ask this but only YOU. I trust YOU and believe in YOU. Until when shall I suffer for the problems of others? Until when shall I wait to have that Peace of Mind? Do I have to die first to have it? (Eugielene L. Tulin)

Heart vs. Brain

What the mind speaks is what the heart says. But sometimes what comes out from our mouth is not what the heart wanted to. It is so hard to fight against your heart as it often hurts our feelings. The heart tells us what we really feel inside and yet we deny it in order to hide our feelings. Mind is sometimes too pretentious. Especially in LOVE, we try to deny what we have inside for some reason. A reason that bring either good or bad in one self. Falling in LOVE is a free will, YES it is!. And you may continue it as long as you didn't step someone's pride. We all know that the heart is very weak when it comes to LOVE matters. Heart is very sacrificing, very forgiving and is like a martyr. Willing to give everything just to received appreciation or be recognized. Heart prefers to be called blind no matter what as long as feels love and will continue to love. When heart rules in LOVE, it may be dangerous. It could be a reason a man put a bullet in his head for not be able to control the feeling of being broken.

In other hand, the brain is another key in decision-making-process on all the things you do. In LOVE, what your heart feels, the brain or mind will weigh it in order to determine whether it is good or bad. Sometimes practicality is one of the main reasons why the mind deny it to do so. Have you ever experienced to say " I don't LOVE you anymore" but what you feel your heart is totally opposite of what you said. The mind is so good in hiding our feelings. Sometimes the mind can make us strong. But can also lead us to be like a rock. "A ROCK"!!.... "A hard-Hearted-Man" we called it. Being a man like this, we often forgot to show softness and sensitivity to the people around us. Though we feel it inside but we are just too macho to admit it and yet continue to be hard. We all know that the mind is power. But it can make us like a fool. It is like saying "I am not a losser." But yet what you really feel inside you are a losser.

The quest between the HEART vs. BRAIN has no ending. Each of which has something to contribute in oneself to become a better man. It is the man itself to decide which one he wanted to follow or to listen both sides before drawing to actions.


Heart below the mind because heart is sometimes irrational. Mind over heart to make it rational. Heart is just being honest and pure, mind is just being smart and showy.