My Life

All my life, I am doing the good things like what is said in the holy bible. But I noticed that in all my problems and pains, the more I draw near GOD the more my problem become complicated. I can't help myself but to question GOD. I am only human, I think I reach the peak of my patience. But I am scared. I want to live my life free from worries. I hope I can pass this problem I have now. They said after I pass though a very hard problem, then time for you to receive surprises and happiness. I hope it will come true. I don't want to blame GOD for all my problems, but I already did. So, I am sorry GOD. I know there are punishment in every sin. As I always think, I shoulder problems which is not mine. I didn't even count on you that you died in the cross not for your sin but to save us. I AM SORRY.