Quite Disappointed

In everyday life sometimes we can say that we must do the best that we can. But sometimes its frustrating that we failed and feel quite disappointed. I know, everyone has this in mind to be somebody else. ANd I admit that I am dreaming to be somebody else.

I've long to change myself, to change EUGIELENE to somebody else but I never thought that the result make me disappoint. I feel like a dump after all. It wasn't so bad, but I feel that its not good at all.

Maybe somebody would say that he or she dont understand me. Yeah, its true,.. I agree. Because even me doesn't understand myself. I dont know where to place, where to start. I dont think if I need somebody else to fix me up or is there someone who can fix me. I am like a piece of paper teared down. Im like a broken glass.

What should I do? Do I have to wait what might come into my way? Do I have to be in a corner, just to keep silence? Where should I place myself?

I have so many questions that haven't answered. I have so many prayers and hopes. And I do keep praying and hoping that someday.. that someday...and someday everything will not be the same again. That my wheel of life will be at the top again.

Hey, I just wanted to say "hi to everyone who likes to read my blog. I know, it will take time again before I can update my blog but I will try to if I have a time.

I been so busy doing this fronline services. This first week of August will be the launching and I need to produce 50 copies of the handbooks and 100 copies of the booklets. I know its gonna be busy but I hope I can make it before the deadlines comes. So, as of now pray for me and wish me luck in everything.

GOD bless everyone!!
its me
EUGIE

Time to Change

This is just a simple word but honestly hard to do. Time to change doesn't really mean to change ones self. There are some areas in our selves that we have to somehow change to make us a better person. Sometimes we can say to ourselves that we are too good that somebody abuse and use our goodness and kindness. I was once experienced that. I am good to everyone. But sometimes it gives me sense that it is not right to be always good. It is not right to always say "YES" everytime when somebody asked you something or needs your help. It is not bad at all to say "NO" once in awhile. Why? Maybe you wonder why......... And to my dear readers, I want you to think of it... Because it hard to explain my own perception and point of views.

Another thing I wanted to change about me is my being innocent. Maybe its time to open up my eyes to something I am not familiar of or have no sense at. I don't want to stay ignorant. I am mature enough to know the world and what life brings. But I assure that what changes it would be, its not for worse.

I know and I feel so blessed to think that there are someone out there who really dont want me to change because they want me to be me as what they used to knew me at the very first time.

To David, thank you so much for being so good to me, I know it brings impact on your mind when I put the quote "Time to Change". You were thinking that I was thinking in a negative way. And that evil thoughts came up in my mind. It doesnt mean change myself from good to worse. No, its not. I love myself and I love my family. Having a friend like you is like a treasure. I will stay good.

And to George Riley., I wanted to thank you too for the concerned you are showing upon me. We knew each other not too long but I can sense that you are a good person to rely on too. You somehow inspire me in somethings in my life. And I really hope that part of you will not change. And I wanted to assure you I will never change for worse. I just wanted to grow up and face the world.

I hope that I am be welcome of this world of constant changes.

GOD bless everyone and more power!!

Life and Destiny

Palmists say that one's destiny can be read in his life lines on the left hand. Wise men say "One cannot taste the sweetness of life's sweet if he had not tasted the bitterness of life's bitter".

It is true that we can give the best we have after we experienced frustrations and heartaches. "Have courage", most spiritual advisers say.

A teacher grows through his experiences with the students and other people with him or around him. He learns from the pains.

A student learns from his experiences and the past mistakes.

It is surprising that bad things happen to good people. You hear it everywhere.... in the family, in the community and even in the church. Life's unfairness touches anyone regardless of anything.

However, GOD has good news for those who are persecuted in one way or another and have suffered for justice and righteousness' sake. They will be especially blessed and gloriously and abundantly rewarded. He reminds us to hold unto HIM faithfully with love for HIM and for our neighbor. To perform the greatest miracle in our lives, we obey faithfully the 4 great laws of success in Og Mandino's "Greatest Miracle in the World".

1. Count your blessings.
2. Proclaim your rarity.
3. Go another mile.
4. Do anything with Love 'coz Love is the greatest....

One day in our lives we will realize the truth that GOD really will give us what we need, thus, our hidden desires and human longings will be fulfilled.

Cheer up!!! Smile and be Happy!!

(VCF)

Know what "Reality" is?

In this world, maybe it is free to fantasize what your future would be. But sometimes its more recommendable to open your eyes and wake up and face the reality. The REALITY, which are sometimes harsh and sometimes gentle. It is sometimes recommended to think and see the world and what it brings. But sometimes, for me, I feel more good when just dreaming of fantazy. Because I know in my dream, every single detail is all romantic, but not in real...

So, here is some of the reality that world brings...

Guys can live without LOVE but not without SEX;
Girls can live without SEX but not without LOVE.
Guys give LOVE to get SEX;
But
Girls give SEX to get LOVE.
So SAD but TRUE. :(

This is true in real. Well, part of human behavior between men and women.